First Week @College West!

First day in College West was pretty smooth and my classmate was pretty friendly i would say and as well the teachers of Fitness Training. Lessons been great for me but just need to be more focus and understand whatever the teachers are teaching us. But soo far i've been doing good in understanding the teachers i guess.hahas... I'm sure i will cope. InsyaAllah.=)

Now a week have already just past and though i gone through few difficulties in life such as, my wallet just lost past few days, at the same time my grandfather admitted to hospital again and feeling very stress but i would say i've been enjoying my life in school together with the people around me. I try to learn to take things easily and to be more relax but i knew that feeling of stress will always come back but it is up to me to handle it. I am feeling good now, just that feeling tired got to go hospital after school to visit my grandfather. May he get well soon and could be home again.

Taking things lightly/easily doesn't mean don't have to be worry about it at all.

New Year!

It been a very long long time since the last post as my laptop charger had problem so have not been using the laptop till now. I am late for wishing New Year but 2011 have been pretty good start for me. Get new friends, new experience in ITE, new environment and many others.

So i was posted to Bishan ITE doing Product Design and that is my first choice, went for an interview as weel as i'm shortlisted and it was a success and here i am in Bishan ITE for the first week. My class is IPA and i love my class and the people around me. They're very friendly and we get bonded as a class in just few days after knowing each other. It's a memories to be remembered.=)

But, I made an appeal in College West for Fitness Training as that is the course that I've been wanting to go to since I am in secondary 3. So i have a very kind teacher who knew me well, she helped me alot! So i went for an interview recently and the interview was a success as well. I am very very thankful! For that i need to go for check up and afterwards I'll get the results and go down to College West to summit all the documents needed and will start schooling there as soon as possible.

*Would like to Thank all Teachers, Family and friends for all the support especially to those who feel very happy for me. I will give my best in keeping my words whatever i have had told both of them.=))

Even if you knew the chances are slim, never ever stop giving your best till the very end.

Graduation 24/9

It's a history of mine in Mayflower Secondary School. I'm not a good student nor I'm the smart one either, I'm just the ordinary student who love the school very much that most teachers, staff in school knew it or even the school's partners knew me. In this 4years of mine, I've given the opportunity to get involved in many many activities in school.

My memories in my secondary school life will always be remembered and i will not forget my teachers especially those who have seen me for more than 2years and have been helping me in many ways and made me be who i am today. I am strongly agreed with my primary 6 form teacher that, secondary school life is a life that you never wanna miss it. The time passers real fast without realizing it and i officially graduated from my secondary school and it has been always a great experience with each and everyone of Mayflower Secondary School.

The memories we had whether the good ones or the bad ones will always be remembered.

N level prelim

Today finally we get back our report book, I'm not very pleased with my results however still puts on smiles because in the past years i used to cry, feel extremely sad etc... But all that was back then when I'm in primary school or even secondary one. Now that I'm mature enough to know how should and shouldn't i be reacting, I've learn to take things calmly with sense of maturity even though like i said I'm not pleased with my own results.

To act with stupidity is just gonna embarrass yourself that was what in my mind and chose to just stay calm no matter whatever the results gonna be. Because i knew it's already past and nothing could change even if i react badly but i also knew there's always room for a better and to improve myself.

To act with stupidity is not the solutions to whatever reason, but we must learn from our mistakes and start to improve ourselves instead.

Break

Again after months then i now finally updated my blog and i was thinking to update once i get my report book for N level preliminary but I've not get my report book but my results are out and to me it is all disappointment and more to be improve.

Even thought it's a disappointment i won't brook over it but i will give my very best to focus and do well for my N level examinations that will be in just less than 1week time. Don't really have confident but i will give my best and will put back everything that could affect my performance.

Problems is never a reason for us to have bad performance in our life.

Dialogue in The Dark

Today we went to Ngee Ann Polytechnic for "Dialogue in The Dark" to experience the blind handicaps lifestyles each and everyday. How they been through their daily life without their version, how they actually know how to different shape packet drinks,money or even crossing the traffic light and many more. That are some stuffs we learn but despite all that basic stuffs, the most important thing is that we gone through how they been through and feel it with our own capabilities exactly.

So the first activity is where we sit tog with some other groups while some others went into the room where we experience the darkness. The activity is that we have to pick a theme whether it is, songs or movies and once we pick one we read it and have to draw it with blind folded. After the person done with drawing the rest have to guess what is it and that person have to pass to another person. As we move on the instructors mention my name and chose me to go up there to continue with the activity so you can call that as sabotage.hahas...

When it comes to my group, we have to sanitizer's our hands before moving in and listen to instructions from one of the instructors there. It's important to listen clearly to the instructions so that we would be clear of what we should and shouldn't be doing in there. I'm the first to step into that place of super darkness and my feelings was like very scary as that is my first time but yet very excited to explore everything in there. Mr. Wesley is our blind handicap guide who is professionally trained, he gonna be the one and only who will guide us through out the journey and we will only could, smell, hear, feel, name it but not our version.

Basically, we could ride the boat, feel the water, crossing the traffic light, walking through the bridge, touching a car, could hear the birds sounds, the river, going into the super market getting to touch the stuffs around, there's also a cafe where we could order drinks or snacks and everything in there are 100% real!!=D To wrapped up, i feel really amazed and inspired how they the blind handicaps are very confident of their destinations. I strongly encourage everyone who are interested to go for it. The price for adult is $20 and for children $12, it's worth it.

No matter where you're standing right now, never ever underestimate yourself.=))

Bored

So currently updating my blog in National Library in NorthPoint. This week as i mention in my previous post I'll be going to grandma place and i went there my sisters was feeling very happy to see me and spending time with them. Nothing much though as everyday is just almost the same nothing change.

Then about 5plus leave the library to meet up with bestfriend since she's around the corner and it's near my house. Meet up with her had a chat a for a while as she got to go and i went back home about 7plus reach home. I was quite bored though but went back home and use lappy, watch videos on youtube and i even stayed up to 4am. So basically that's that will be back with other posts.

Patient is the word key today, with it we will feel calm no matter what come across us.

My day today

So for the past days, weeks been going back school till tomorrow my June holidays finally start. But still i knew my artifact still need some time to be done as there are still numbers of things got to do, once everything is done i will take a picture of it and post it on blog and facebook.

I'll be going to my another grandma place in Aljunied and I'll be staying over from this coming Monday to the up coming Thursday. Will be spending that moments together with my two lovely twins sisters Kartina & Kartika and will take their pictures as well. Excited to see them next week, especially how they welcome me before i even step into the house each time i go there to visit all of them. Hahahas....thinking about it makes me really miss them... =))

Today my grandma cooked "Asam Pedas" syiok sia!! Hahas... One of my favorite dish out of other many dishes as i really love foods but unfortunately at times i see some foods outside looks interesting i won't be able to eat it because it's not Halal. :( Hmms...nevermind i will still have some other foods that's halal. So i won't be updating till I'm back from grandma place.

Lastly, I will definitely miss someone very much, after tomorrow gonna be like our first time not meeting each other for quite a numbers of days when we use to meet almost everyday without fail. Gonna miss you Bestfriend.=))

When someone hurt you, don't be too angry, don't hate that person for the rest of your life, But remember that, at least he/she ever makes you feel happy before.

Fresh Start

Well, well, well.... It been months since the last time i updated my blog so decided to reopen this blog again. Life, guess i could say it been like an roller coaster? In life definitely there is up and down but i must say everything are just control able and still in hand. I'm glad that no matter what comes across me, any obstacles that i have to go through, i gone through it with patient, calm and positive mind-set.

So, the latest updates in my life is mid-year-exams, which i think whoever had a high expectations of me definitely disappointed of me but i still got two chances left to improved myself in many many ways especially my studies.

Lastly, i will try to always end my post with something i learn, that i wanna share on my mind.

Never think too high of ourselves and try to tell others about their facts but tell ourselves instead. Because no one is perfect but we knew ourselves better then anyone else in the world. =))

One Month Plus

It been pretty long since the last post which is last month and here I'm back again to update my blog. I'm not sure how am i gonna start to say about my Life lately but guess everything are still under control no matter what difficulties or happiness i gone through. Nothing is easy in life, no matter how hard or easy it is we still got to face it and not to run away from it.

My experience in life that I've shared with some pupils that i trust and feel comfortable talking to and one of them is my school full-time counselor (Mrs. John). Seldom do i turn to her instead of two pupil in school that i trust the most and it's all because of some reasons of myself that not to mention here. Mrs. John said that i been carrying burdens on me for a long time and at my age to carry such burdens takes lots of energy and I'm very mature to handle all that and that is what she said, something like that i guess.

The maturity of mine are all base of my experience in life for 15years plus and soon 16years. Some stuffs about my life here, i been working since I'm 14years old ever since i came from single parent and mum is my mother and father. I started working and some people may think i shouldn't be working at my age and should be focusing with my studies now especially this year as I'm sitting for my N level. But honestly no one knows how i have been going through my life all this while. It's very tough but i still go through it and at times i feel very tired but i still have to move on.

I definitely have a choice whether i wanna work or not but i have to work to support myself in order to give some help to my mum as she's alone to pay all the bills and to raise me up all alone by herselves. Just like what i said it's very tough for me but i still have to go through it because offend i try to remind myself that there are people out there who are going through their life even worst compared to me.

2010, A matter of Choice

It's my very first post for 2010 and life been great for the first two weeks. Think i can put it that way and don't wish to talk much about my first week in school. Hence, I'm definitely gonna make the best choice for this year as I'm sitting for N level in few months time and of course it's my last year for secondary school life. Time really flies isn't it? Hmms...it's very fast that I'm turning sixteen years old in April and sitting for N level and the results will tell me, brings me to my next step of life.

Feeling scared will definitely appear in me but i just knew that i will and must work very hard in order to get to the course i want in ITE when i move on after my N level. I knew what exactly i want and so i will work towards it from now on. I can't afford to wait any longer to get started because three minutes count and in that period of minutes any changes can take place...

Two weeks of school so far so good, I'm coping with my studies as well as my other activities and taking this year even more serious. I try my best to remind myself to Take one Step at a Time, whenever I'm up to something or doing anything. I'm just feeling very tired, not getting enough sleep sometimes and have difficulty waking up every morning BUT, that won't be the reason for me to not going to school as not turning up to school is just not me and i think everyone knows that. So that's all i got to say about the two weeks of school i guess.

Table-Tennis Camp

Last week on the 9,10,11th of December, that's when we had our Table-Tennis camp in school. There are 10 committees and total of 36 member that turn up for the camp. I can say this camp actually trying to tell us that we got to be discipline at all times as i think Table-Tennis team are lack in and of course more things that we could learn from one another and at the same time enjoy ourselves.

Day one, the committees have to be serious with all of them for the start and of course there's pupils late for the camp then punishment given. Basically, both captain Jasmine and Desmond got to tell them what are the expectations of them in the camp for three days two nights and then we had our ice-breakers like getting to know one another better and we also had our 200seconds challenge by the teachers. Actually for day one nothing much happening, in the afternoon we start our training at about 3pm to 6pm then bathe, had our dinner and lastly Movie chose by the teachers. A great movie that is strongly recommended to all.

Day two, everyone are suppose to gather at the foyer by 7:30am sharp but however some pupils are late including the committees and so we got to do our punishment together because as mention in day one “One for All, All for One”. So we got to do half squat, push up and sit up over and over as when Jasmine ask them questions they seems like not answering. Afterwards, we move on with our morning PT by running around the school four times and some walk by themselves due to their own reasons. Honestly, during the jog i feel like wanna vomit but i control myself, it really shows me how i really slack a lot as I've not been training all this while. So after jogging we go for our breakfast and i don't wish to eat has i never eat after my jog or any other sports activities but been force to eat a bread.

After breakfast we move on with our wet activity, all committees are suppose to set up all the stations while the rest of them get their dry clothes and get back to the canteen. There's lots of delay in between as we're thinking about their safety during the activities but after all everyone had fun playing with the water that been tie up with the plastic. Most of them keep taking and throw it to everyone around and that including our teacher Ms. Chew that join us in the activities as well and then everyone go wash up get ready for lunch and training at 2pm to 6pm. After training we had our dinner and get ready for our Appreciation Night to our teachers and seniors that turn up. All of us had fun during the night and being very hyper that they dance around in the I&E studio. Then we had our night walk at about 1am to 3am then everyone goes back to sleep.

Day three wake up at 7:30am, we had our PT again and fortunately no one late and we continue with our stretching and jog around school for one round. No one are suppose to walk but Jasmine was mad as there's pupils who walk and while i turn jog back to get two girls that are left behind as they're walking again because of their own reasons. Then it's my favorite session it's the Tchoukball activity then we played till 12:30pm. Then get ready for our training and our friendly match with one of the secondary i forgot already which school. I played match once and i won but think my opponent, his such a joker that he didn't play properly and keep making mistakes. So everything end at about 5plus and i wait for Chanel to go dinner together. Get home bathe and right away i sleep till the next day as I'm feeling very tired. So there's all about the Camp and good job to Jasmine and the rest of the committees member. =)

Tchoukball Carnival @ R.P

Some may ask what kind of sport is Tchoukball but some will definitely know what is it, how to play and rules of the sport. So two days before the carnival which is on the 12th Nov we had first time training for about two hours at Ping Yi Secondary School and been coach by Mr. Rezal and our teacher in-charge is Ms. Chew. To me it's a great sport compared to other kind of sports that are common among us and i get to know this sport just recently this year that same goes to some of the Mayflowerians and some Teachers. Getting familiar and being active in this sport and some of Mayflowerians actually take part in competitions recently this year.

After i get to know this sport, getting a chance to play in school then take part like this carnival which been organised by the Republic Polytechnic students. I'm soo excited whenever i get a chance to play, even taking part in competitions and continue with this sport whenever there's a chance given. As next year i will be sitting for my N level i have to cut down some of the activities ahead to focus more to my studies next year onwards and while I'm there at R.P Ms. Chew actually ask and find out for me that there's Tchoukball in Simei ITE which i really wish to go to that ITE when i graduate from Mayflower so that shows that i could continue play Tchoukball if i qualify to Simei ITE in 2011.

However, many people wish to go to Simei ITE as well, as i think it's because this ITE is a very good compared to others. But no matter what it takes, i will really gonna work very hard towards my goals and give my very best to get into Simei ITE. I believe there's a chance for me to get in but all that will also base on my studies and performance in school now. To me it's important for us to think and plan for our future so that we will not regret with all the decision we make. I think one thing that I've had learn from someone i knew is that, it's always good to think and plan for our future even if at this age of 15 years old we're thinking about our career ahead as we at least have a goals and can work towards it... =)

SLB 4D3N Camp

I went to Student Leader camp last Friday, it's four days three nights on 30th Oct-2nd Nov been held at Changi Coast Adventure. This camp or retreat of course about leadership and of course each and everyone of us do learn some new leadership qualities. On Friday school end at 10am and we SLs got to assemble outside 1E classroom at 2pm and i got four hours free time. I followed Sheryl go home as she's not done with packing her bag then i called my grandma she told me to come over to her place at Aljunied which it's very far and so i did went there, had my lunch and dad give $50 and about 12plus i left walk to mrt zoom to school and reach on time before 2pm.

So day one, as soon as i reach there mark attendance and get to know I'm in group two together with Sheryl, Wen Xi and others sadly Jasmine not in my group but wait for day two she joined our group. Then all the instructors came and we start with ice-breakers get to know each other in group two and as well as our instructor Augustine. First day for me was really very very bored that i really don't feel like doing anything. Till when we going for our lunch, i walked pass the teachers Mrs. Sidhu saw me and asked "You sick ah?" i shake my head and said "No." Even when I'm queuing for my food one the girl instructor asked me what's wrong, am i not feeling well. i told her "No, I'm fine." Then she said is it because I'm already in the holidays mood but i told her again no but i really feel bored and will try my best to get into the mood. After dinner we had opening speech conducted by our principal Mrs. Lim for few hours then supper and lights off.

Day 2, wake up, gathered for breakfast and our very first activity was the rock climbing but we got to climb with blink folded. I feel quite happy and getting into the mood early in the morning compared to day one. Excited with the land activities plus we will be having sea activity to and best part I'm no longer scared of the sea. =) After rock climbing moving on with our lunch then our next activity was improvised raft and rowed it to the sea. After all the activities we went to bathe, after bathing been punished to do, half squat, push ups, crunchers because some of them didn't tuck in their shirts and they were made to look at us while we been punished. Afterwards, we go for our dinner and had talk this time conducted by Mrs. Sidhu and then our land instructor take over. We are given map and got to think how we gonna walk from west to east the next day and i was like half asleep as I'm really very tired same as the others they're feeling very sleepy.

Day 3 Land Expedition, took my Nike waist pouch which my mum brought for me on Thursday and it's blue again. Hehe...everything also blue... =D We had our breakfast then settle down get back to our own departments as we will be walking together with our department teacher as well. I'm in Resource Department and teacher in-charge is Ms. Tang but she's not feeling well to follow us for the land expedition so Ms. Tan replace her. If i gonna talk about the expedition definitely there will be no ending but through out the expedition we do had fun, laughter and when my department walking together with other department which Ms. Suhaila is in-charge and Ms. Chew just tag along with her i suddenly find out that Ms. Suhaila became lame when she together with Ms. Chew lamest teacher. Both of them actually showed me their lame part together by doing the so called their A,B,C rep. Mygosh...I'm really speechless and just laugh about it and their reaction doing the rep really funny... Hahahas... Moving on we had our lunch at the army market then one of the sec1 guy decide to stop his journey with us there and our instructor get Chief J to pick him up and go back to the campsite. When we continue our journey, we encourage each other to keep going and we aim to reach on time. We're suppose to be back by 6pm and from our team work, we reach really on the dot at 6pm and was made to walk into the campsite holding each other hands while doing a cheer...

After that we bathe, next Student Wellness came back with Ms. Chew without Ms. Suhaila as they left Ms. Suhaila behind and i don't know how on earth that happened. Then our Camp Chief J talk to us the four group that came back earlier, she said that there's another two more group still at east coast making their way to the campsite and another group been punished by instructor Akashah i don't know why they been punished but we the four group joined them with the punishment because we believe "One for All, All for One" and then we walk back till we meet up with the group that left behind and walk back together. That night we been told that we're the first school to walk that far and also our teachers have had prepared our dinner and ice-cream for us. Then some others SLs and myself pack our bag to go home sweet home that night as some got lessons or personal reasons.

After all this is my last time going for SL's camp as next year will be my last year in Mayflower and will be sitting for my N level. Thought first day i feel very bored but i believe I've had learn lots of leadership qualities which will definitely help me in future to be a great leader ahead or at least help me to discipline myself. Soon, i will feel that my time in Mayflower Secondary is very fast and time really flies fast. Of course i can't deny it that i will definitely miss my secondary school life, people around me, my teachers especially those who have been always helping me no matter how my actions towards them sometimes. I think they believe and knew that i can change to be a better person ahead and that's why they never give up to help me. In fact, they also help other students that they think this student needs help, they're very caring teachers where i believe i will never see this kind of teachers after i leave my secondary school even one of the teacher that leaving the school next year told me the same that Mayflower teachers are very caring... =)

EOY results

It been another long update again this time since the last time i update my blog and here it goes again. My results this time really made me feel very very happy and satisfied about it. I think i also made some people very proud and not disappointed of me. Am i right?.. Especially for math, i improved a lot this time that i passed very well and out of my expectation that i get A for it. So in report book think all subject teachers commented about which i will be typing down later what each and every teachers comment about me.

Now about my results i passed almost all subjects except for Elements of Business Skills (EBS) and i got total of six subjects. I did pretty well for most of the subjects and now for my exact marks and grade in report book for all subjects are:

Subjects: Mark: Grade:

English: 59 D

Basic Malay: 72 B
Mathematics: 71 B
Computer Applications: 50 D
Design & Technology : 70 B
Elements of Business Skills: 52 D

This comments are from my form and co-form teachers.

Comments: Kartini is a dependable student leader who is always ever-willing to carry out duties assigned to her. She is a positive influence to her peers as she is often seen encouraging them in their studies and showing concern. Academically, she puts in consistent and great effort to achieve her dreams.

As for now will be the subject teachers comments.

Subjects Name: Remarks:

Basic Malay: Kartini is well-behaved and clever. She is good in her Basic Malay too.

Mathematics: Kartini strives very hard to make personal improvements so as to achieve better results in Mathematics. Her enthusiasm and perseverance is highly commendable. Keep it up!

Computer Applications: Kartini exhibits a high level of enthusiasm and shows lots of initiative.

Design & Technology: Full of zest to learn, Kartini puts in a lot of effort to produce good quality work. Given her present motivation towards learning, she has the potential to do well in the subject.

Elements of Business Skills: Kartini is bubbly and responsive. She has the potential to do much better if she applies herself to work assigned.


CCA Remarks: Kartini is a determined player who puts in her best at every training session. Her hard work and perseverance have led to the rapid improvement in her skills. Keep up the goo work!


So this are the comments in my report book, think i have had improved a lot and my hard work has paid off. Now i will still and work even harder to improve my studies no matter what it takes, to achieve my goals and to be a better person ahead. I just knew what i want and what are my goals for the future and i definitely gonna work really very hard to achieve it no matter what it takes or come across me... =)

It been very long...

Since my last post, guess been very busy with stuff and especially now it's exams period. So firstly some update about my DNT stuff, I'm done with the product, it's really well done and in fact my DNT teacher wanted to take that as my 'N' level but told her that i don't want as i wanna do something better and improve in it. Now the bad thing that actually made me cry is that i lost my DNT file which contain a lot lots of hard works that i had done since the first day of the lesson. I cry because i really give my hundred percent and put my heart & soul whenever it comes to DNT. I really don't know how it go missing but definitely I'm not blaming or accusing anyone and only He knows. Now i also have to do everything all over again and as for now only the journal as my teacher want it and i really got no much time as Monday is the deadline and i am soo dead! I will get zero if i didn't give it to my teacher on Monday.

So EOY start last Monday which is 28th September as usual language come first so my first paper was English. I'm done with English both papers, Math paper 1 and CPA and left with Elements of Business Skills (EBS), Math paper 2, DNT, think thats all that I'm left with. Really gotta do my very best and tomorrow most probably going out to study. Been study, feeling quite stress sometimes but still doing pretty well and trying my best to be relax and not be too stress up. Anyway, after all the papers i will just relax my mind not gonna be stress up thinking about the results soo much though it's scary when think about it.

Now about last Friday, it is really a very last minute plan and quite embarrassing to i can say. Last year had MacDonald's and this year kopitiam... Hahahas... But had fun, though just a small simple one... Hopes that she's enjoy as well and didn't know that she was really expecting something from me! Hahas... Oh well, I'm so gonna get it done by tomorrow night and as for tonight gonna stay up and try my very best to get it done. It's worth it staying up for this and though i know this is just something simple but it means a lot... =)

DNT Garden competiton @ S.P

It been quite long since my last post as i have been busy with my Design and Technology(DNT) projects and maths remedial but mostly DNT as compared to maths remedial it's just once in awhile. Now I'm down with one and think got about two more projects which is my very own product for DNT lesson and the other one is the Thinking Skill lesson project. Well, it don't really makes me feel stress up for being very busy with school projects, activities but what I'm thinking now, i really must finish up my DNT project as the deadline actually supposed to be last two week Friday and i should be done with it by now. But I'm not done because i got to do the garden competition project first as the deadline was last Thursday and of course I'm done with that by now.

So last week was supposedly having one week holiday but to bad for me and Farina as we actually got to go back to school everyday since morning till late afternoon to do the garden projects we really got not much time left and that's why we go back school everyday. Actually pretty disappointed with some pupils that didn't turn up and don't have the responsibility to at least inform that they not coming, just don't wanna name them as it won't be nice, now shall skip about that. So, theres me, Farina and of course our "Lady Boss" hehe... really had fun with both of them. It's very tiring, very sleepy but we manage to finish up everything and bring all the stuff that we got to summit to Singapore Polytechnic last Thursday.

Thursday was the most fun day i had in that week, as we had fun, laughter, lame jokes, so after to bring everything there and give it to them the Singapore Polytechnic student after that we make a move, deciding where should we go for break fast but all Faina and myself said was "Anything". Hahahas... So in the end we had our break fast at "Secret Recipes" our lady boss ordered her "Sparkling" for her drink and each time she drinking i was like saying "Sparklingsss..." hahahas...then that's when we start laughing... But before that from Singapore Polytechnic we went to Raffles Place sit in front of the Merlion, guess what, soo many people trying to post as if they're opening their mouth together with the merlion "vomit" and two of them beside me was like spotting who else trying to post like that. Hahas...funny sehh... After all the hard work, we really had fun together... =)

OBS! 17 Aug- 21 Aug 2009

Let me start with some quote that i learn from OBS.
"NO MAN IS AN ISLAND"
"YOUR TEAM IS IMPORTANT"
"THE DESTINATION IS THE GOAL"
"IF YOU FAIL TO PLAN , YOU PLAN TO FAIL"
"THROUGH HARDSHIP , YOUR COLOURS APPEARS"


OBS was very very fun and lot lots of learning points to and never can i deny it that actually OBS have made an impact in me. I've had learn many things through this camp or in the other hand it's a course and besides all the learning points it also helps me to overcome my fears that have been in me for years and it also have lots of emotions involved to. I really love OBS now and of course my team, my group, the hyper ones, the joker ones and lots more. I really appreciate the opportunity and privilege that's given to me instead of being in school all the time and I'm definitely will apply it in my life.

Day one basically we start to introducing ourselves, like our name of course, from which school, what's our cca and what do we expect at the end of this camp/course. So there's sixteenth of us from other schools in the group, they're myself, Ameerul, Jocelyn, Jonavan, Amirul Ashraf, Ashraf, Syed, Glen, Gerald, Clive, Li Ping, Wei Zhen, Aliah, Zakiah, Rachel, Khaliesah and of course our great instructor Charles. Besides introducing each other we also need i/c for different activities and i/c of the day and I'm the Land i/c my partner for Land i/c were Zakiah. Charles told us this the first time he see two girls be the Land i/c so garang. Hahaha... Garang right...=)

Day two and day three, we paddle to Ketam Island as we got no much time to paddle all the way to Kampong Mamam so we had our night there at Ketam Island. Next day we actually reach two hours plus earlier from our set time. As everyone paddle i had sea-sick, headache and my group have to paddle all the way while I'm resting as i really can't help it. Finally our night at Kampong Mamam I'm really Thankful to all of them as because of them I'm able to move on with the journey and even most importantly overcome my fears. We had maggi mee for our dinner and some cans foods. It's tiring but at the same time we do had fun, laughter, the lame jokes by Ameerul and every night fill with happiness.

Day four we have to walk for about 15km from Kampong Mamam to our campsite one and i am so glad that some of them know exactly how to use the map and lead the way as Zakiah and myself we both really not sure. It's really very tiring as we got to carry big bags and so many other things as well and we did not give up instead perseverance, endurance and the support from one another that give each an everyone of us strength to keep going till the end. We go through the thick and thin together in all the five days and no matter what happen care and concern are shown to everyone. So the most fun when we reach the campsite everyone of us get the chance to go for jetty jump even those who feel scared and non-swimmer.

Lastly day five, we wake up and have had our pity with the instructors, then our breakfast. Most of us was super emotional as it's the last day of the course/camp, our last time having breakfast together and we may not see each other again. However, we do take pictures together and exchange our details. Our activity of the day is about commitment, where we think of our commitment and when we're ready we're suppose to jump and hit the bell and I'm the only girl that hit the bell so hard that actually made my fingers hurt. It was pretty emotional i can say as when everyone doing it, it was in a serious mood and i guess we really mean it a lot when we try to hit the bell. So after all, all of us had fun in this five days four nights together and we do keep in touch with each other. It's was really Awesome! I really love this course/camp...=)

Common Test Term 3

Finally it is end of my common test for term 3, i had English, MT on Tuesday, Math, Computer Application (CPA) on Wednesday, lastly my DNT on Thursday and that's end of common test five papers for three days. I guess i was well prepared for this common test as i have the confident that i will pass most of my subjects but i think i will fail my DNT and CPA as i am totally blur and not sure. Now i only know that i passed my Math as my teacher told me, satisfied and happy but still very curious about my marks. I was very very sure and confident that i will pass my math when i start doing the math paper and actually while doing the paper i was smiling to myself. Hehe...=)

Then English and MT, i am confident for both subjects also as weeks before common test my English teacher which is my form-teacher as well, gave us lot lots of practice, MT i don't really study MT just read books but normally i passed hopefully I'll pass as my MT actually getting worse. Now, as for DNT and CPA i am really not sure while doing the papers, no confident to pass, sure fail but i still have one last chance for all subjects and that's for my end-of-year exams. I must really buck up and work extra harder this time for all subjects and just one year plus to go for my 'N' level next year. So fast i in sec3 already, time pass really very fast...

Now, I'm just counting down to Monday for Outward Bound Singapore (OBS)!! Wooo... Hooo... I am super duper egg-cited about this OBS, someone told me it is good for me as i will learn more things and will never regret going for this camp and so, Of Course i believe la... Haha... I will be away from home and school for 5days! Hurhur...first time but love it at least can release some stress and relax... When I'm back in school in two weeks time from now i will start doing my DNT project with my group but they will start doing it while I'm away, got lot lots of ideas in mind and if this project goes smoothly i plan to bring this proposal up to my principle to make it reality i guess, why not right.(InsyaAllah) Then also will continue with my own DNT design i guess it is creative and lastly teachers day. So i will update about the OBS when I'm back and about everything that's going on. Oh ya, about my little cousin, his getting better and recovering...=)

Emotional

It been three years of me in my secondary school life and it took me three years plus to learn to control my emotions. I have been trying my best to control my emotions and i guess i have had improved controlling, managing my emotions well. It is not easy to control emotions for me as i am very bad at it in the past when I'm in my primary school. I started to learn controlling my emotions when I'm 12 years in my primary six, but i fail to control my emotions for long, as when I'm in sec1 i became very hot temper, very emotional etc... After all that, there's once i try to learn to control my emotions again as someone told me that, as a student leader i have to learn to control my emotions well and i knew that it is also important for me to control it, not only for now but also in future.

Today i supposed to help for the last two period but I'm not helping and not even cooperating. Hais...i try my very best to control my emotions but suddenly something just really irritate me and i get very very irritated by it. I seriously don't know what to say about it, i mean everything is my choice, my business and not others. Whatever i do there's consequences to it and if i have to be punish I'll take up the consequences and won't run away from it. I'm not trying to be selfish or something but in this situation i guess i have the choice and i make up my mind for my choice. Am i being emotional by that behaviour, action...hais...

There's soo many to say actually and i put a side my laziness and i type so so long and yet it suddenly gone just like that. I am soo frustrated and so tired now so I'm just cutting it really very short. Hais... So went to KKH just now to visit my cousin just 2years plus, he admitted to hospital last night as his mom doing his milk he grab a pot of hot coffee and his right body, right leg and a bit at his arm. But my aunt said that it is not that serious and I'm glad to hear that and hope he recover really soon. Hais...it is really sad to see him go through all the pain himself at his age now. Afiq, that's what my family call him and here are some pictures
of him that i took.