OBS! 17 Aug- 21 Aug 2009

Let me start with some quote that i learn from OBS.
"NO MAN IS AN ISLAND"
"YOUR TEAM IS IMPORTANT"
"THE DESTINATION IS THE GOAL"
"IF YOU FAIL TO PLAN , YOU PLAN TO FAIL"
"THROUGH HARDSHIP , YOUR COLOURS APPEARS"


OBS was very very fun and lot lots of learning points to and never can i deny it that actually OBS have made an impact in me. I've had learn many things through this camp or in the other hand it's a course and besides all the learning points it also helps me to overcome my fears that have been in me for years and it also have lots of emotions involved to. I really love OBS now and of course my team, my group, the hyper ones, the joker ones and lots more. I really appreciate the opportunity and privilege that's given to me instead of being in school all the time and I'm definitely will apply it in my life.

Day one basically we start to introducing ourselves, like our name of course, from which school, what's our cca and what do we expect at the end of this camp/course. So there's sixteenth of us from other schools in the group, they're myself, Ameerul, Jocelyn, Jonavan, Amirul Ashraf, Ashraf, Syed, Glen, Gerald, Clive, Li Ping, Wei Zhen, Aliah, Zakiah, Rachel, Khaliesah and of course our great instructor Charles. Besides introducing each other we also need i/c for different activities and i/c of the day and I'm the Land i/c my partner for Land i/c were Zakiah. Charles told us this the first time he see two girls be the Land i/c so garang. Hahaha... Garang right...=)

Day two and day three, we paddle to Ketam Island as we got no much time to paddle all the way to Kampong Mamam so we had our night there at Ketam Island. Next day we actually reach two hours plus earlier from our set time. As everyone paddle i had sea-sick, headache and my group have to paddle all the way while I'm resting as i really can't help it. Finally our night at Kampong Mamam I'm really Thankful to all of them as because of them I'm able to move on with the journey and even most importantly overcome my fears. We had maggi mee for our dinner and some cans foods. It's tiring but at the same time we do had fun, laughter, the lame jokes by Ameerul and every night fill with happiness.

Day four we have to walk for about 15km from Kampong Mamam to our campsite one and i am so glad that some of them know exactly how to use the map and lead the way as Zakiah and myself we both really not sure. It's really very tiring as we got to carry big bags and so many other things as well and we did not give up instead perseverance, endurance and the support from one another that give each an everyone of us strength to keep going till the end. We go through the thick and thin together in all the five days and no matter what happen care and concern are shown to everyone. So the most fun when we reach the campsite everyone of us get the chance to go for jetty jump even those who feel scared and non-swimmer.

Lastly day five, we wake up and have had our pity with the instructors, then our breakfast. Most of us was super emotional as it's the last day of the course/camp, our last time having breakfast together and we may not see each other again. However, we do take pictures together and exchange our details. Our activity of the day is about commitment, where we think of our commitment and when we're ready we're suppose to jump and hit the bell and I'm the only girl that hit the bell so hard that actually made my fingers hurt. It was pretty emotional i can say as when everyone doing it, it was in a serious mood and i guess we really mean it a lot when we try to hit the bell. So after all, all of us had fun in this five days four nights together and we do keep in touch with each other. It's was really Awesome! I really love this course/camp...=)

Common Test Term 3

Finally it is end of my common test for term 3, i had English, MT on Tuesday, Math, Computer Application (CPA) on Wednesday, lastly my DNT on Thursday and that's end of common test five papers for three days. I guess i was well prepared for this common test as i have the confident that i will pass most of my subjects but i think i will fail my DNT and CPA as i am totally blur and not sure. Now i only know that i passed my Math as my teacher told me, satisfied and happy but still very curious about my marks. I was very very sure and confident that i will pass my math when i start doing the math paper and actually while doing the paper i was smiling to myself. Hehe...=)

Then English and MT, i am confident for both subjects also as weeks before common test my English teacher which is my form-teacher as well, gave us lot lots of practice, MT i don't really study MT just read books but normally i passed hopefully I'll pass as my MT actually getting worse. Now, as for DNT and CPA i am really not sure while doing the papers, no confident to pass, sure fail but i still have one last chance for all subjects and that's for my end-of-year exams. I must really buck up and work extra harder this time for all subjects and just one year plus to go for my 'N' level next year. So fast i in sec3 already, time pass really very fast...

Now, I'm just counting down to Monday for Outward Bound Singapore (OBS)!! Wooo... Hooo... I am super duper egg-cited about this OBS, someone told me it is good for me as i will learn more things and will never regret going for this camp and so, Of Course i believe la... Haha... I will be away from home and school for 5days! Hurhur...first time but love it at least can release some stress and relax... When I'm back in school in two weeks time from now i will start doing my DNT project with my group but they will start doing it while I'm away, got lot lots of ideas in mind and if this project goes smoothly i plan to bring this proposal up to my principle to make it reality i guess, why not right.(InsyaAllah) Then also will continue with my own DNT design i guess it is creative and lastly teachers day. So i will update about the OBS when I'm back and about everything that's going on. Oh ya, about my little cousin, his getting better and recovering...=)

Emotional

It been three years of me in my secondary school life and it took me three years plus to learn to control my emotions. I have been trying my best to control my emotions and i guess i have had improved controlling, managing my emotions well. It is not easy to control emotions for me as i am very bad at it in the past when I'm in my primary school. I started to learn controlling my emotions when I'm 12 years in my primary six, but i fail to control my emotions for long, as when I'm in sec1 i became very hot temper, very emotional etc... After all that, there's once i try to learn to control my emotions again as someone told me that, as a student leader i have to learn to control my emotions well and i knew that it is also important for me to control it, not only for now but also in future.

Today i supposed to help for the last two period but I'm not helping and not even cooperating. Hais...i try my very best to control my emotions but suddenly something just really irritate me and i get very very irritated by it. I seriously don't know what to say about it, i mean everything is my choice, my business and not others. Whatever i do there's consequences to it and if i have to be punish I'll take up the consequences and won't run away from it. I'm not trying to be selfish or something but in this situation i guess i have the choice and i make up my mind for my choice. Am i being emotional by that behaviour, action...hais...

There's soo many to say actually and i put a side my laziness and i type so so long and yet it suddenly gone just like that. I am soo frustrated and so tired now so I'm just cutting it really very short. Hais... So went to KKH just now to visit my cousin just 2years plus, he admitted to hospital last night as his mom doing his milk he grab a pot of hot coffee and his right body, right leg and a bit at his arm. But my aunt said that it is not that serious and I'm glad to hear that and hope he recover really soon. Hais...it is really sad to see him go through all the pain himself at his age now. Afiq, that's what my family call him and here are some pictures
of him that i took.