For you Sis!

Dearest Sister,

This post is specially for you and this is what i really wanna share with you.

Last few weeks kan, when i tengah buat kerje kat LJS i saw two person that really looks like you. The first person i saw, the look, the height, the way she dress up etc... Most of it really like you and when she eating with her family i tak tahu kenapa tapi i asyik tengok kan dia aje all the way then dia turn and look at me then i also turn look at other place. Bila dia dahbis makan i masih lagi buat kerje and of cause i tak leh stop buat kerje and malam tu ada ramai orang. Then nak tengok kat dia i see that she left, i was like looking for her all around then i realized and ask myself "Kenapa cari dia bila dia actually bukan Kak Kartini?".

The second person, i pon tengok dia she look macam you beh i also tell myself untuk jangan terlalu mengikutkan perasaan. Tapi orang yang pertama i betul-betul sadar dengan apa yang i nampak dan itu bukan lah hayalan. I guess i really miss you so so much and thats why this kind of feelings timbul. I juga amat faham kenapa susah sangat kita nak jumpa each other and i tahu suatu hari nanti kita pasti akan jumpa each other... InsyaAllah... The most things that i want you to know that even if i get to just see you for few seconds with or without saying anything or i get to see you for few minutes i'm still happy and appreciate it so much... Because i really miss you so so much and i can't deny it... Last but not least, Masa yang akan menentukan segala-galanya... Take Care!!=)




With lots of Love,
Kartini...

Sentosa outing

Yesterday was the most relaxing and happy day. Went to Sentosa, Palawan beach with primary school friends, they're Sheilla, Shakinah, Syafiqah, Erma, Nadia for the gals and the guys Rafqi and Irsyad. Once we reach there we settle down and some of them get change as they wants to swim at the beach. But out of seven of us Sheilla and myself did not swim and we just take care of the stuff, our bags and our dearest Sheilla and Shakinah, so sweet of them to prepared some foods for us....Well, after all not the foods thats important, the most happy times is that when we spend our time together, talk to each other, the laughter, the smile etc...and especially me from the start of the day keep disturbing there and here... Haha... All that will always be remembered...

We really enjoy ourselves so much and after had lots of fun swimming in the beach they went to toilet to bath and while me and Sheilla pack up getting ready to go Vivo city for our dinner. But in the end me, Shakinah, Rafqi and Irshad, only the four of us had our dinner at banquet. After dinner Syafiqah and Nadia can't stay longer with us and both of them leave together. So left the five of us, we walk around the Vivo city and took pictures again...

We also do talk about our future, that will we still be going out together in future as we're aware that we definitely will be very busy with our own stuff when school re-open. But then, i still belief that we will still meet each other in future and its all up to us whether to still keep in touch or not... Hope that we will always keep in touch to each other and our friendship will last forever... InsyaAllah... Amin... =)

A month...

Finally, i get the chance to blog and pen down whatever that i've been keeping to myself. Actually though i could tell her and share with her but it seems impossible to tell her anything ever since this holidays start. Oh well, can't blame anyone about that...

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It have been a month, a month that you leave me and don't you know that its really hurts to lose our loved ones.

I love you so so much that i won't and couldn't deny that but why are you doing this to me. What happening to you and how are you right now i don't even know.

All i know is that i miss you soo much that i can't even focus in whatever i'm doing. As i'm typing this my left hand hurts...

I'm injured because i can't stop myself from thinking of you this past few days and the pain on my hand is not as pain as in my heart. I tried to accept the reality fact, i accept that although its very painful and its really hurts me.

Someone always told me to keep this faith stronger and i have learn lots of things from that someone...

Everyday when i wake up, starting my day and go on with my life, i try and try to keep this faith stronger. What should i do now?! Why do you do this to me? Its really hurts me so much...

You give me hope... You give me promises... But now, you give me empty promises and you're nowhere. I hate empty promises i hate it! You give me hope and i hope for it and i trust you but now i myself don't understand why....

I've learn something very useful

Yesterday went back to school in the morning for table-tennis from 9am-12pm. When its time we pack up and gather as the two teachers in-charge had something to tell us about the camp that is postpone to next month. During the training i'm quite slack as i'm very very tired on that day and very sleepy also, so i walk around quite sometime. Then i saw "Siao jie" going to toilet, walk towards her and i say "BOO" in a very low tone. She was damn shock right away she hug me and i'm also shock cause she suddenly hug me. Haha... She so funny and cute!! =)

I leave school with Vanessa and all the way from school to the mrt we were talking about someone for very long. Hmmm...as we were talking about that someone i'm starting feeling quite sad also cause next year will be very different from last year and this year. Oh well, we really had a nice chit chat together. After that the both of us take our on way she go home and i meet Ck for lunch. We had lunch at Long John Silver at amk as we're really sick of MacDonald's and KFC most of the time meet keep on eat the same thing.

After sometime we at amkhub we went back to school as Ck have workshop at 7pm-9pm. As we walking in the security guards say that Ck is out of bound from school and one of the security guard bring her to see Om. While i was told to wait outside the general office(GO) after Om talk to her we went to the canteen to sit the we change place to level four. Both of us went down to look for MK as i need him to help me in some stuff. Then went to his table and we chit chat while he do his works after that Ck got to go for the workshop and i follow her. I end up staying back cause the teachers need my help so i stay back and help out.

I have learn something very useful and i'm glad that i had the opportunity to join in the workshop. There's mayflower ex-student that came back for this workshop as this workshop is meant for them. This workshop is about mentors and the opposite is mentes. Its about how mentors face and help their mentes that have their own problems and need help. I get to listen to all the conversation and discussion i think its really a great opportunity. After the workshop end i take the opportunity to ask some questions to one of the councilors. I would like to share about this workshop to anyone that interested to.

Then i and Ck walk to the bus stop till we're in the bus we keep on sing and dance we're like a crazy pupil. Haha...we sing the song title "That thing you do" its a song that MK and his gang use for their performance for the MF charity dinner. Oh well, i really had a nice and enjoying day...=)

Streaming result day

Today went back to school for streaming result and helping Hartaty with her math again as she really wanna study so that's why i'm willing to help her. So, early morning was supposed to meet her at eight o'clock but she's late cause waiting for Devi who the one that very late. Then delay the timing and i waited for half and hour but i'm not angry at her. Just that unhappy that she's not on time and anyway she's the one who gonna sit for the test so to me its all up to her to decide for her future. After waited for 30min's Sheryl and her dad came over so had breakfast with them and rush to school as its gonna rain heavily. Sheryl go for her follow-up thingy and i go meet the two girls that's very late.

The three of us went up to the library and i help Hartaty with her math. I explain to her which ever questions that she don't know how to do and don't understand. Then i think of a few questions and tell her to do it so that i know she understand whatever i explain to her. I think that's what normally my form-teacher cum math teacher do whenever we had a small group of remedial. Just do as what i think i should do and follow her patten also. Hehe... :) Then its almost time for us to go for the streaming talk and result. So we pack up then go out of the library to the venue for the streaming talk and after everyone settle down.

The teachers brief us and there's a paper which we need to sign and from that paper we also know we go to which class and which subjects will we be taking next year. So i'll be in 3Creative and be taking D&T and EBS next year. Most of the pupils are posted to 3C next year and my class gonna be the biggest class ever i guess. Also think next year my form teacher will be a male teacher and everything will be very different from the past. Hais....so sad that next year won't be the same as the past two years... But in the other hand i'm glad it won't be the same so that i don't have to see whatever happens from the past to years again. Honestly it really hurts me and its like a nightmare to me cause all that happens in the past two years happen again when i'm in sec2's beginning of the year. Now that everything gonna be very different i must try to get use to it... :)

Confused!

Today i really forgot that there's some activity held at Padang which i have to go to then my friend call me and told me about it. Well, its not a good start also cause i don't wanna go for it but there's one of the staff tell me to go home if i don't wanna go for the activity and also told me that there's not enough pupil and yet i'm around but don't wanna go. I really feel so so guilty and at the same time i didn't inform my mum about that activity as i totally forgot about it. So decided to just go after thinking about it and went to general office (GO) to call my mum and let one of the male teacher talk to her and explain everything about the activity.

While we in the bus i was not in the mood and its really got nothing to do with anyone of them but its because i've been feeling like that for the past few days. Till today and right now i'm still feeling the same and i'm trying to let that feeling out from me. Its not that i'm unhappy with anyone of them or angry but i don't blame them cause maybe my action makes you pupil think that way. On Monday will be my streaming and my first day of ********. Which mean next year i won't and can't be like last year, this year, i can't help so much and give my full time in school's activities and also can't volunteer for anything that doesn't involve me.

Although next year i gonna be busy for lots of stuff i will always try my very best to put my studies and school things first. I'm sure some of the pupils in school will be wondering why i'm so busy that some of the activities i've to cut down but no matter what i can't tell those pupils my reasons. I think its really not nice if those pupils find out and i know one day they will find out about it but hopefully not from me but they know by themselves.

I was so confused of myself yesterday that i also can't understand why. After the whole thing at Padang we gather at the same place and there's a groups of Malay guys singing and they hit one of my school teacher (CCPE) and just keep singing don't even bother to apologise and i was staring at them as i'm really unhappy with their behaviour. Then my senior ask me who are they and i answer her out loud and just told her "Some outsides that's really very Rude!"

I'm so angry and after i claim myself i ask myself why am i so angry just because they hit her, the teacher when she herself didn't say anything about it. I'm confused cause i'm not only angry, unhappy but i'm also get so agitated at that point of time. When actually beginning of the day i had a small conflict with her. Hope there's someone out there can help me by explaining this confusing thing to me...

Gosh...

Bastard!! What the hell you want from me...

I had enough from you and how many times do you wanna hurt me...

All the things you do its really irritating and i really Hate it!

Why can't you just get the hell out of my Life!

You're just a Bastard that very...
Irritating, Don't know how to appreciate, a big Liar and worse you're Heartless!

I don't know what the hell you want from me, can't you just stop your nonsense...

Without telling anyone and that including MC and MS...

I actually already feeling of forgiving you and you do it again!

After few months i start to feel forgiving you again and i don't know why i'm feeling like that...

But still you do it again and this time i can't take it anymore!

I Hate you, i don't wanna hear anything about you or even see you!

No more and its enough, enough of all this nonsense!

Nonsense from you that i have been facing since last year...

For You I Will

When you're feeling lost in the night
When you feel your world just ain't right
Call on me, I will be waiting
Count on me, I will be there
Anytime the times get too tough
Anytime your best ain't enough
I'll be the one to make it better
I'll be there to protect you, see you through
I'll be there, and there is nothing, I won't do

[Chorus]
I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
Promise you, for you I will

I will shield your heart from the rain
I won't let no harm come your way
Oh these arms will be your shelter
No these arms won't let you down
If there is a mountain to move
I will move that mountain for you
I'm here for you, I'm here forever
I will be your fortress, tall and strong
I'll keep you safe, I'll stand beside you, right or wrong

[Chorus]

For you I will, lay my life on the line
For you I will fight, hmmm, for you I will die
With every breath, with all my soul
I'll give my word, I'll give it all
Put your faith in me
And I'll do anything

[Chorus]
Promise you, for you I will

Sadness...

Gosh... Today i feel soo...sad, emotional and like a crazy girl. I don't know what will happen to me in future and as for today i went to tpy to make my spectacle. As i'm walking around the tpy central i keep on think about her and her all the while. I'm really worried about her but also trying to tell myself she will be fine. I ask her by msn but she never reply and few minutes later she offline. Hais...but nevermind think she should be okay. I really don't know what should i do, lots of things on my mind, lots of things happening but i'm still trying very hard to hang on...

Although all this really hurts me so so much but i know i still have to face all this... I don't know how to react when school re-open and to even face all the people around me in school. When we makes a person happy we will feel happy to and that is what most of the time i do and want to do. But now, can i even do all that, how can i help them, help others in need when i can't even help myself...

After choose my spectacle i went to amk to meet Ck, Ljs, his cousin and cousin friend. We went to play pool and from there i feel like a true human after feeling so so dead. Had fun playing and well me and Ck we're Noob in it but well as we go on playing we getting better. So i had fun with them and at least cheer myself up but also that night i'm still thinking of her. I just can't get her out of my mind and its really difficult. The more i try to get her out of my mind and more i think of her. Hmmm...its really hard to get someone who we feel attached to, to get out of our mind, heart and soul...

Bad Day

I don't know what's wrong with myself and this few days i seems to not or even realized what i'm doing. Its really a bad days for me especially yesterday when my phone been confiscated. Its already end of year and all the more i should help her and not give her more trouble. What the hell happening to me! Yesterday when she told me to help her do something, i help and make a mistake.

It shows how lousy and sux i am... After one of the incident how am i gonna go on with my life, i feel so so down, sad , tired, lousy, sux and discouraged!! I'm just useless! After all this i call and name myself as an Student Leaders Board! What kind of a leader i am! I really don't know what to do already, how long can i take it and i don't even know how to react now. Its really complicated and its always complicated. I look at her and i know she's very tired cause i heard she have not been sleeping well. I wanted to ask her is she ok at that point of time but i don't know why its very difficult for me to say out and ask. So i continue do what she told me to do and just keep everything to myself...

It's pathetic

Haiz...i really don't know what to do everything is pathetic...

What is it that i don't know?!

What is it that i don't understand?!

What is it about friendship and relationship?!


I experienced it before, i gone true all this before and how can i don't understand... Even when i don't understand it, i'll try to understand. Yes! Its hard and not easy to say out what's happening... I've try my best to always be there, to understand and do anything. But at the end of the day i'm still a human and have feelings to... Everything that happen is not what i want and nobody want it to be like this and i don't blame anyone. Why must all this happened, i'm so so tired about all this... I'm feeling very tired and discouraged... What should i do now, i'm really confused... I am very upset and worry bout my result, i can't hide or pretend that i'm happy when i'm not. Its natural if i feel very sad bout my result cause my result will shape my future and how can i don't feel upset about it when my result to me is bad...

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As i'm typing this i can't stop myself from tears... Its hurtful whenever to face this kind of situation but what can i do seeing her like that hurts me soo much. Well, this is also something that i must learn how to accept the situation cause its all her job. I'm just a normal girl and can't do anything bout it cause i'm just helpless in it. But of cause no matter what happen i'll always be by her side if she need my help. I'll always be happy to help her and hope to see her more relax after all the examinations....

Korean people came to school

Today the Korean people came to my school basically to know more bout Singapore education, bout our school. Was in school bout 9am, went up to the studio put my things there. Then one of the male teacher told one of my senior to take video while the Korean people, my school principle, vice-principle and some of the teachers in the conference room. So told him that i wanna follow my senior then we went down to the conference room took video and another male teacher, he taking pictures then ask me to help him with it cause he got something else to do. After all the conversations, they walk around the school and i took pictures there and here everywhere they go to. In order for me to take more pictures of them i have no choice but to run everywhere. Its very tiring but well, i enjoy it so so much.. :) Then the last place we went to the library to have lunch and all staff was there to welcome the Korean people. While i'm still taking pictures as they came into the library,take their foods and while they eating to. At that point of time "she" was standing right in front of me while i'm sitting. She turn look at me and gave her very sweet smile...Haha.. :p I told her that at last i see her smile, cause from the beginning i saw her she seems to be quite busy preparing and helping there and here for the foods to be serve to the Korean people, our principle, vice-principle and staff....

Saturday, 4th Octorber

Its a day that really makes me feel soo happy cause all my plan go on pretty well. Hopefully this year will be the most memorable birthday celebration for "you" and really hope you feel very happy bout all that happen on 4th october, i'm so so happy for you... :) I'll never forget everything that had happened between us in the past whether its the bad time or the good and happy time with you.. May all the happy times that i had with you will last long till the day i'm there in another world. I do really appreciate all that you had done and also appreciate having you in my life. Everything is getting better and i'm feeling happy about it... Now the most important is my EOY must really hundred percent focus for all the subjects especially math i must not let "you" down... Well, just hope that i'll pass my math and also other subjects as this is my streaming year...

Apportunity

Last week talk to her and have no choice but to tell her everything if not she say don't talk to her... Sigh... Hmmm...she surprise me by saying that i must tell her everything if not don't talk to her and of cause i need to talk to her also feel touch by that sentence... She makes me think that i'm important to her that i must tell her everything but am i important? It doesn't matter anyway as long as i know that she's important to me that's enough. So i told her everything and feel like there's nothing else in my life that i keep from her... Well i don't mind telling her everything anyway, cause i trust her and that's why she know everything bout me...

Now i don't know what's wrong with myself, my life... Last few days seems to be very pathetic and it makes me feel like wanna give up... But when i think of her and what she told me in past makes me still standing around people. Then there's the 3rd person, another woman came to my life and started to talk to her bout what happen recently. I did not tell her exactly what happen cause most probably just don't want her to be worry and don't wanna tell her bout all the bad or sad things... Think everything that had happen last few days is all because of my own attitude and i must do something with that... Hmmm...everything is just pathetic this days or maybe i'm the one who pathetic... Can't blame anyone but myself...

Wednesday,24th September

I don't know what should i do or react. I try hard to control my emotions today in class and it took me for quite sometime to relax myself. I was trying to control myself and can't be bothered to do other things cause i was really concentrate telling myself to relax... At the same time i did not do whatever i should do for (CE) lessons, its not that i don't want to do but its just that i'm trying to control myself, my emotions. I really can't take it anymore, i can't bear to see her like that but what can i do and again i'm just helpless... That's when i feel, think that i've make another person feel unhappy by my behaviour... As i'm trying very hard to control myself, i can't take it and just starts to cry...

I know and realized that i had done something really wrong last weekend and i've hurt the person that i love. I also know that she feel so hurt by my action and my behaviour... I guess this the biggest mistake i ever done in my life and i will never do it again... I don't want to hurt people around me and especially if that person is my loved ones... Why is all this happening to me... Why is my happiness end so fast and problem, sadness take place... Just hope any of this days i can talk to her if she got time...

Saturday,20th September

I went out with senior to study at amk from 2plus and i was supposed to reach home before 10pm. I meet her at the amk library but there's no space for us to study in the library. About 7pm went to the middle of amk field near to the condo to watch the sunset, having fun, being super lame and took pictures. Then went to banquet to have dinner and after that we went to mac to study again. Around 915pm decided to go home cause its quite late, we pack then walk to the mrt and by the time we reach the mrt its about 930pm. We was being super lame especially to "you and ur enjoyment" keep on talk about the enjoy. Haha... So the day is just fine all the way up to 940pm i took mrt and senior, she walk home.

While i'm in the train msg my mum to inform her that i'm on the way home but she was unhappy that i'll be late which is i'll be reaching home after 10pm. Well, i know its my mistake but at least i inform her that i'll be late and i only will be late for about 10-15mins not 1hour. Hmmm...that's the night that i never expected something bad will happen and something that i never dream of i'll do such a thing, something that i just can't say it out. Now i'm just feeling soo sad and not sure, dunno whatever i had done last night is the right thing to do or the wrong thing but i guess its the wrong thing to do. But at that point of time i also dunno what to do already was feeling very sad and stress to... Hais...seriously dunno what gonna happen to my life in future and now just can't stop crying... I know that i can't let this matter effect my studies but this time round its really hard to get it out of my mind as this is a very serious thing i ever made... Why must i always be like this...when i started to be positive something "whacked" me down to the ground again and it really hurts.... Lastly...


To the two of "you"...

Just wanna really thank you both for being by my side when i need the support. Thanks for all the support and everything that you guys have given me, i really appreciate it...Without the both of you i really don't know and can't imagine what's gonna happen to me, to my life. Also have a great time with you guys, all the lame jokes and the enjoyment... Haha... Will never forget those times when we're together... Thank You so so much!! :) Smile!

It hurts...

As i'm typing, its hard for me to stop my tears... I really don't know what to do... It hurts me so so much to hear bad things like gossips bout the both of them... Although i know all that gossips is not true but it still hurts me soo much to hear all that, again & again and Again!! Sign...

I'm not strong to hear all that...whenever i heard gossips bout them i will always feel soo hurts and will speak up to those who talk bad things bout the both of them. Last time i did not do that cause i think its not true so why must i respond but now...i can't take it anymore, day after day more and more bad gossips bout them... Sigh... Hmmm... Don't know what to do...i know i'm just helpless. Helpless! Helpless!!... All i want is to see them happy but well i know all this is part of life... I belief at the end of the day they both will be just fine, today also no mood and never eat at all... Hmmm...think now should just relax my mind or else will get bad headache again... Well after all, its normal if i feel worry bout them...

Saturday,13th September

I went to polyclinic this morning to check what's wrong with my left eye and ear... Cause i had headache last few days and its affecting my left eye and ear. Now my left ear is ok but my left eye, still in pain and after i break my fast i ate the medicine and its soo bitter... I only take the medicine when i'm having headache, the doctor say that maybe i get headache cause i'm feeling stress... Hmmm...but dun think i'm feeling stress right now, maybe its because during the one week holiday one of the day i'm soo stress and get headache. I feel so so tired and sleepy now, early in the morning straight the way go to polyclinic... Glad that nothing serious after all, just need to eat the bitter medicine and don't need to go for X-tray... I reach around 8plus and waited for quite long to see the doctor and to get the medicine... Hmmm...so sleepy better get some rest now so tomorrow got the energy to continue my fasting...

Wednesday,3rd September

Last wednesday i went to school for maths remedial in the morning started at 9am and end around 10plus. After remedial i went out with three of the girls from my class til around 1plus and then i meet my senior and walk around amk til 8plus. On that day actually i'm not feeling well but don't wanna go home so hang out with my senior... When i wanna leave already, contact my mum and meet her... Glad that at the end of the day i went home with my mum cause my condition was very very bad. Reach home i was like zombie, feeling very cold,straight the way lie down and sleep. I was so tired but had a nice day out with senior so not so bad. Whatever that i had done really affect my health i guess... Hmmm...i told one of my friend what happen and after telling her everything she told me good that i'm not her sister if not she will slap me already. Hais...good that she's not my sister if not i kana slap already... Hmmm...such a caring friend i have... Haha... :p That's one of my friend haven include my senior, if she find out confirm scold me to death! Of cause not so stupid go and tell her right but she also might find out by herself one day... Just prepare to run far far away from her when she find out then...

Darkness

Guess now i am in a very dark side... Hope to be shine again... Sometime it's really hurts to be in the dark and really prefer a better side... But sometime also have no choice, just can't take it and can't control it...

Teachers Day Celebration

Friday,29thAugust is teachers day celebration and feeling quite sad... After the celebration went to staffroom looking for my form-teacher for the report book but can't find her. While standing outside the staffroom door one of my loved ones that i always name her as my "sweet" one came towards me. At that point of time sheryl and myself going to cry already cause two of the teachers is leaving but i'm trying not to cry then my sweet one says that she wants to cry already while she standing inside the staffroom near to the door. Then she came out from the staffroom stand right in front of me and she starts to cry... She hug me three times tightly while she's crying and told me what happen. She also told me that my co-form teacher cried when she went into the staffroom previously. Keep on telling her to stop crying while hugging her cause i just can't take it to see her crying on the day that she actually should be happy and that is the first time i see her cry. After keep on telling her to stop crying then she stop and went into the staffroom. I went back to classroom then get my report book and walk back to the staffroom. While walking to the staffroom, saw my co-form teacher then i starts to cry again at the same time keep on ask her is she okay. She told me she's okay but i can see her eyes very red and like just stop crying. She went to the toilet and i walk to the staffroom to call one of the teacher. Then i call the other three of the teachers to give them some chocolate. At that point of time i was crying and very very hard to stop my tears then the three teachers look at me as i'm crying. That's all what happened in the morning in my secondary school...



My day in the afternoon, went back to my primary school... As i'm waiting for my primary school teachers at the canteen my primary school friend Sheilla came towards me and i'm feeling very happy to see her again... :) Then we went to the canteen and have a privacy talk about each other. After talking for quite some time, i saw one of the teacher that now known as Mdm Norhafizah or Mdm Nor and i ask Sheilla to go towards Mdm Nor with me. I talk to her, ask how is she and ask for her number so that we can be more keep in touch to each other. After talking to Mdm Nor for quite some time we walk to the front gate to meet our other friends. We meet each other there's Sheilla, Shakinah, myself and many more includes some of them from sec1s this year 2008. We was so happy that at last on teachers day celebration we can gathered again at our primary school. We met our ex-teachers then even took pictures with them and one the teacher known as Ms. Adawiyah, she was so happy to see her ex-students also. Around 2:30pm we all leave the school, went to a block opposite our primary school sit under the block then chit chat at there for quite some time and took group photos. After that we went to a playground few blocks from where we are. That playground is where we as a group normally go after school last time. We spend together till around 4:30pm-5pm, when we at the playground we also keep on took pictures. Haha...so so happy to be together with them again... :) So...that's my whole day in secondary and primary schools.

Class T-shirt

Today early in the morning while having silent reading in class our form-teacher give out our class t-shirt. Our form-teacher, she told us that we must be very very quiet before and after we get our class t-shirt. Then after almost whole class get the class t-shirt again almost the whole class got lot lot lots of objection about the shirt. Got the wrong size lah...why put our name and our number already still must put our class lah... Then some of them choose weird weird name.. Haha... All of them are so funny.. But the most funniest is that some of the girls got the wrong size and its super "Big". I can imagine how do they look like with the class t-shirt that is not their normal size but a bigger size. Hmmm... Maybe there will look like ______?Oops.. Hehe.. ;) Nah...I'm not that evil.. Well...what's done, is done and that is still gonna be our class t-shirt. Nothing that can be change...

The Difference

I got up early one morning and rushed right into the day;
I had so much to accomplish that I didn't have the time to pray.
Problems just tumbled about me, and heavier came each task.
"Why doesn't God help me?"
I wondered,
He answered, "You didn't ask".

I wanted to see joy and beauty,
but the day toiled on grey and bleck.
I wondered why God didn't show me,
He said, " You didn't seek".
I tried to come into God's presence;
I used all my keys at the lock.
God gently and lovingly chided,
"My child, you didn't knock".

I woke up early this morning,
and paused before entering the day;
I had so much to accomplish
that I had to take time to pray.

"Right Here Waiting"

It's really a meaningful song and its one of my favourite song. It's also makes someone cry when she listen to this song.. Haha.. :p This song is also for our loved ones i guess. Well, so far i've not been listening to this song for quite long... Hope to hear this song again.. :) Those sentences below is specially for a person that very special to heart. It can be anyone like people at home, firends or even people at school like teachers.. :)





"Just hearing this song... Makes me think of you..


Even in the little time we have known one another...I can't help, But care for you.

Your Heart Your Soul...And all those things you do.

But after that it gets so complicated...

You don't see it from my point of view...We are so far apart.

All the things you say...They got to me.

I know you have been through so much...And I'm always here for you if you need me.

Things were so much easier...back in the start.

All our conversations are forgotten...And arguement take their place.

I just want things back the way they were.

When I smile to see your face...

Back when We had a laugh...And I hated it when you, We're gone.

We hardly talk anymore...And it kills me to lose you like this.

I would be lost without you.."

When I'm down you're there giving me the support. When i feel like giving up in life you give me precious advice and from your advice i go on with my life... I'm not affraid to say that you're half of my life. You know all bout my problems cause i feel so comfortable talking to you. Lot's of things that you have done. I won't forget all your kindness.You're the person that i always share my happiness and sadness, i share everything with you.

Day after day i feel attached to you and when i see you happy i feel happy to. I am willing to do anthing as long as you're happy even if i'll been hurt or injured. You'll always be someone important in my life and i don't want to stay away from you but if by staying away from you will make you feel happy then i guess i should stay away from you. It hurts me when i must make a choice to stay away from you but again like i say i will stay away from you if that will make you feel happy. All i want is to see you happy but nothing else... Sometime i just wish that you can tell me what you feel, your true feelings so that i can understand and even if i don't understand i will try my best to understand...

Monday, 26May

Last monday 26may went to Kbox... Went there with jacelyn,phaedra,sheryl and the other two pupils. Phae and jac keep singging. Hah..guess what?? I can sing chinese song leh.. Haha... I sing english song "Everytime" with sheryl. Heez...its our current favourite song..

Getting over it

Today i feel abit weird. Haha... I guess i'm getting over what i have at home. I think now school is the place where i can be happy and esp when i see her happy is already making me feel super happy.. So...hope this will last long and i will keep happy always in school esp with her!

To my beloved...

Everytime i was down you was always there giving me the support and advice.. I dunno how do i thank you. You have done so so much and i really do appreciate it.. Always be there to give me precious advice.. All i can say is i will try not to let you down. I want you to know that no matter what happen i'll never ever break all my promises to you.. I may have problem at home and will cry and be moody at times.. But i will try not to be sad and moody when i'm in school, as long as i see you happy i'll be happy too!!
So stay happy too kay... SMILES!! :)