Being part of SLB

Today i was late for school but NOT on purpose can! Hais...but still can't blame anyone or anything but myself for being late today. I took cab down to school though i know i still late for school but i just don't want to be very late as, if i am very very late i won't be able to go back to classroom for my lesson and must sit at the detention corner. When we, the late comers are allowed to go back to our class for lessons the SLB coordinator teacher ask me how many time I've been late for school this term, i said i don't know cause i can't really remember but now i realized i was late for 2 time this term.

I was not in the mood actually as i am very tired and still sleepy and know that it is my fault for being late today as i slept quite late last night doing my DNT assignment but I'm not blaming anything. The coordinator, she also said that if it gonna be the fourth time i should know what will happen, but actually i don't know till i ask one of my teacher Ms. Suhaila and she said I'll be under probation as a SL if i late fourth time. I'm not sure why but after she (coordinator) talk to me i suddenly feel like under probation for the second time and sure this time if i under probation i confirm out from the SLB and i just feel like can't be bother about it anymore. She the one who nominated me and if she's also the one who get me out from the SLB i don't mind, don't care anymore, i just can't be bother anymore. I know i shouldn't say this... Hais....

It been three years I've been an SL, actually at first i don't wanna be SL but the courage from others was making me decided to just go for it. Yes, i can't deny it that being part of the SLB actually not that bad besides of the consequences, rules, etc.. theres also lot lot lots of benefits, privilege given and mostly learning points. Hmmm...i just don't know why but sometime I'm just sick and really very tired of pupils saying that, "You're an SL, you should show good examples." or "You're supposed to show good example." Hais...sometime i just wish i could be just a normal student, but i didn't say that if I'm a normal student i have the right to break the rules, rules are rules. Being part of SLB is a big responsibility and carrying this big responsibility sometime quite stress i guess or maybe it is just how we wanna take up and face the responsibilities given to us.

Semester 2

It been long since the last post and now here i am blogging again but nothing much to say... Actually wanted to post but keep feeling lazy and plus i don't really got the mood to blog. So semester 2 i have been going home early especially the first two weeks straight after school i go home and no longer stay in school till soo late. Someone keep pestering me why i suddenly now right after school straight the way go home. Seriously no reason la dehh...it is really bored and nothing to do, just simple as that for your answer.

Since Monday till today it have been such a bad days in school which i really hate it so much and also feeling a bit of depressed because of my feelings this days especially today. But i do try my very best to control it and always stay calm no matter what happen, whether i like the situation or not i am still trying very very hard controlling this emotions even if it hurts me soo much...



Who are they to me?
Why must i get affected by it?
Why can't i get this feeling out of me?
Why,why,why..........

I seems to realized all my actions this few days but sometimes also still show attitude to some pupils as because of my own reasons that i think now only one person who know about it and don't really matter. Tomorrow, i am so gonna wear the baju kebaya with think black jeans straight to school for the very first time but doesn't matter. I also did my DNT work about the topic is "IDEATIONS" and I'm only done with one which I'm supposed to do ten ideations but of course my partner gonna do five and I'll do five to so it is fair...