Sec1s Selection Camp

Last Thursday and Friday in school we had our sec1s selection camp 2009. I am the mentor I/C with Syamim mentor AI/C and Jovin mentor helper actually that don't really matter as all of us are in one team.=) It was very enjoyable, fun working with both of them as they are seriously very hyper and so the three of us are very hyper for that two days one night camp. So many things have happened during the camp and i am still very happy after everything.

The three of us in-charge of group six and we're really looking forward to know each and everyone of them from group six. First start, to get to know each other name, class and CCA, it took me quite some time to remember each and everyone of their names. As mention so many things have happened and i also do learned some things from this camp.

Actually, since morning till afternoon we the mentors of group six do feel disappointed of them as we try our best to get ourselves hyper and as well to get them feel the same way. But, their attitude simply show us that this camp is boring to all of them and we the mentors also did not even see that they're communicating to each other, having the initiative, during the morning to afternoon activities and as a mentor I/C i am absolutely unhappy about it and so i decided to talk to all of them. The other two mentors also told me that they're feeling very pissed off and unhappy so i told them not to worry as i already talk to them.

I was expecting them to show some improvement but there's no improvement at all. As we move on with the activities and there's some delay in between i bring them a side and talk to them again and also told them what their other two mentors feel about them and about their attitude. So in the late afternoon they finally show a big improvement and i feel super happy. From there they continue to communicate well with each other and even take initiative. They really finally show us their potential as a leader in future and i believe they can be a great leader as well as a role model. Really had a great time with all of them... Well done group six!=)

Break

It been three years I'm in mayflower secondary and so many things have happened and of course if i can reset, turn the time back i will definitely do it. I would want to turn back to my very first day of school in mayflower to start a better life, but all that is just a wish that will never ever come true. Never ever come true!

Since last few weeks i don't know why but the feeling of being very odd in life every time appear. Whatever in my mind, what I'm thinking sometime of myself is being odd. That feeling is absolutely hurt me sometime and whenever I'm feeling that way at any time i keep telling myself to control it, it is just my imagination.

I may be weak in my studies and in a normal technical stream but am i that bad?
Studies may be improve and it is never too late right... Why normal technical sometime must only be with all the other normal technical instead from other stream. Now i just waiting for June holidays because, I need a break!

Sometimes things just happen with or without we realize it and sometimes when we realized it we're actually doing it because of our own personal reason even if it hurts our loved ones. I realized sometimes i choose to behave in one kind that actually i know some people that know me just won't like and unhappy with it but i have my own reason for that. In our life is full of misunderstanding.

Love

What is Love?
How strong Love can be?
How strong can we Love someone?

And it's all about our Love towards our loved ones no matter where they are and what are they doing right now. To me love is also a strong word because since we was very young we been love by people around us and when we now an well grown up teenagers we learn how to love and give love to others. Through the love we learn the pain, sacrifices, care, concern and lot lots more.

When we love someone no matter who they're, what position they're in our life, most importantly is that we do love them and when something happen that we don't expected for we just got to face it even if it hurt us. So many things about love to talk about and i think it will never end.

To me, when we get to know someone and day after day we get a long with that person, again no matter who they're, what position they're in our life, after knowing them for quite sometime and sacrifices happen between us, next is love that we will feel from the heart. Happiness come towards our life and we feel that whenever we're with this person we feels very happy. At the same time we also want her/him to feel happy just like how we're feeling.

Sometime we love a person so so much that we don't want them to get hurt, to feel sad, feel disappointed of us, things like that and all we want is to see them happy because their happiness is our happiness to. But actually, she/he is the first person to get hurt, feel sad, feel disappointed because of us and that's because they also do love us, it just that the love towards us from them is not the same as how we love them, sometime. I rather be hurt than others to be hurt. Even if it hurts me so so much i really don't mind because their happiness is my happiness to.

Mid-Year-Exams Results

I get my results yesterday and really feel very upset about my results this time. Especially for Math and DNT, i failed badly for almost everything and out of six subjects i only passed two subjects. This mid-year-exams really means alot to me but yet i do badly for it and i know i must not give up though yesterday after get my DNT paper i do feel like give up but tell myself that it's not the end of my life and I'm not gonna give up.


"A Failure is only When they Give UP."


I really don't know how to face my mum and tell her i do badly for my exams this time. Yesterday, after get all my results i look at my mum's picture in my wallet i almost tears but i control myself, tell myself to be strong and keep going. Even now when I'm typing i do feel like crying and i know even if i cry, keep thinking of the failure side. Nothing will change.

Sometimes i think why, why must people look down on Normal Technical?
Is NT people that bad, are we useless, stupid and that's why people think that way?
No matter what we're still humans.

I will definitely focus more for my next exams and do better for it. I don't want to let my loved ones down and feel upset esp my mum. She got a very high expectations and hope of me i must not let her down. So many things happen in my life and day after day i get more and more mature. I know what exactly i should do.