Sunday, September 13, 2009

DNT Garden competiton @ S.P

It been quite long since my last post as i have been busy with my Design and Technology(DNT) projects and maths remedial but mostly DNT as compared to maths remedial it's just once in awhile. Now I'm down with one and think got about two more projects which is my very own product for DNT lesson and the other one is the Thinking Skill lesson project. Well, it don't really makes me feel stress up for being very busy with school projects, activities but what I'm thinking now, i really must finish up my DNT project as the deadline actually supposed to be last two week Friday and i should be done with it by now. But I'm not done because i got to do the garden competition project first as the deadline was last Thursday and of course I'm done with that by now.

So last week was supposedly having one week holiday but to bad for me and Farina as we actually got to go back to school everyday since morning till late afternoon to do the garden projects we really got not much time left and that's why we go back school everyday. Actually pretty disappointed with some pupils that didn't turn up and don't have the responsibility to at least inform that they not coming, just don't wanna name them as it won't be nice, now shall skip about that. So, theres me, Farina and of course our "Lady Boss" hehe... really had fun with both of them. It's very tiring, very sleepy but we manage to finish up everything and bring all the stuff that we got to summit to Singapore Polytechnic last Thursday.

Thursday was the most fun day i had in that week, as we had fun, laughter, lame jokes, so after to bring everything there and give it to them the Singapore Polytechnic student after that we make a move, deciding where should we go for break fast but all Faina and myself said was "Anything". Hahahas... So in the end we had our break fast at "Secret Recipes" our lady boss ordered her "Sparkling" for her drink and each time she drinking i was like saying "Sparklingsss..." hahahas...then that's when we start laughing... But before that from Singapore Polytechnic we went to Raffles Place sit in front of the Merlion, guess what, soo many people trying to post as if they're opening their mouth together with the merlion "vomit" and two of them beside me was like spotting who else trying to post like that. Hahas...funny sehh... After all the hard work, we really had fun together... =)

Monday, August 24, 2009

OBS! 17 Aug- 21 Aug 2009

Let me start with some quote that i learn from OBS.
"NO MAN IS AN ISLAND"
"YOUR TEAM IS IMPORTANT"
"
THE DESTINATION IS THE GOAL"

"IF YOU FAIL TO PLAN , YOU PLAN TO FAIL"
"THROUGH HARDSHIP , YOUR COLOURS APPEARS"



OBS was very very fun and lot lots of learning points to and never can i deny it that actually OBS have made an impact in me. I've had learn many things through this camp or in the other hand it's a course and besides all the learning points it also helps me to overcome my fears that have been in me for years and it also have lots of emotions involved to. I really love OBS now and of course my team, my group, the hyper ones, the joker ones and lots more. I really appreciate the opportunity and privilege that's given to me instead of being in school all the time and I'm definitely will apply it in my life.

Day one basically we start to introducing ourselves, like our name of course, from which school, what's our cca and what do we expect at the end of this camp/course. So there's sixteenth of us from other schools in the group, they're myself, Ameerul, Jocelyn, Jonavan, Amirul Ashraf, Ashraf, Syed, Glen, Gerald, Clive, Li Ping, Wei Zhen, Aliah, Zakiah, Rachel, Khaliesah and of course our great instructor Charles. Besides introducing each other we also need i/c for different activities and i/c of the day and I'm the Land i/c my partner for Land i/c were Zakiah. Charles told us this the first time he see two girls be the Land i/c so garang. Hahaha... Garang right...=)

Day two and day three, we paddle to Ketam Island as we got no much time to paddle all the way to Kampong Mamam so we had our night there at Ketam Island. Next day we actually reach two hours plus earlier from our set time. As everyone paddle i had sea-sick, headache and my group have to paddle all the way while I'm resting as i really can't help it. Finally our night at Kampong Mamam I'm really Thankful to all of them as because of them I'm able to move on with the journey and even most importantly overcome my fears. We had maggi mee for our dinner and some cans foods. It's tiring but at the same time we do had fun, laughter, the lame jokes by Ameerul and every night fill with happiness.

Day four we have to walk for about 15km from Kampong Mamam to our campsite one and i am so glad that some of them know exactly how to use the map and lead the way as Zakiah and myself we both really not sure. It's really very tiring as we got to carry big bags and so many other things as well and we did not give up instead perseverance, endurance and the support from one another that give each an everyone of us strength to keep going till the end. We go through the thick and thin together in all the five days and no matter what happen care and concern are shown to everyone. So the most fun when we reach the campsite everyone of us get the chance to go for jetty jump even those who feel scared and non-swimmer.

Lastly day five, we wake up and have had our pity with the instructors, then our breakfast. Most of us was super emotional as it's the last day of the course/camp, our last time having breakfast together and we may not see each other again. However, we do take pictures together and exchange our details. Our activity of the day is about commitment, where we think of our commitment and when we're ready we're suppose to jump and hit the bell and I'm the only girl that hit the bell so hard that actually made my fingers hurt. It was pretty emotional i can say as when everyone doing it, it was in a serious mood and i guess we really mean it a lot when we try to hit the bell. So after all, all of us had fun in this five days four nights together and we do keep in touch with each other. It's was really Awesome! I really love this course/camp...=)

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Common Test Term 3

Finally it is end of my common test for term 3, i had English, MT on Tuesday, Math, Computer Application (CPA) on Wednesday, lastly my DNT on Thursday and that's end of common test five papers for three days. I guess i was well prepared for this common test as i have the confident that i will pass most of my subjects but i think i will fail my DNT and CPA as i am totally blur and not sure. Now i only know that i passed my Math as my teacher told me, satisfied and happy but still very curious about my marks. I was very very sure and confident that i will pass my math when i start doing the math paper and actually while doing the paper i was smiling to myself. Hehe...=)

Then English and MT, i am confident for both subjects also as weeks before common test my English teacher which is my form-teacher as well, gave us lot lots of practice, MT i don't really study MT just read books but normally i passed hopefully I'll pass as my MT actually getting worse. Now, as for DNT and CPA i am really not sure while doing the papers, no confident to pass, sure fail but i still have one last chance for all subjects and that's for my end-of-year exams. I must really buck up and work extra harder this time for all subjects and just one year plus to go for my 'N' level next year. So fast i in sec3 already, time pass really very fast...

Now, I'm just counting down to Monday for Outward Bound Singapore (OBS)!! Wooo... Hooo... I am super duper egg-cited about this OBS, someone told me it is good for me as i will learn more things and will never regret going for this camp and so, Of Course i believe la... Haha... I will be away from home and school for 5days! Hurhur...first time but love it at least can release some stress and relax... When I'm back in school in two weeks time from now i will start doing my DNT project with my group but they will start doing it while I'm away, got lot lots of ideas in mind and if this project goes smoothly i plan to bring this proposal up to my principle to make it reality i guess, why not right.(InsyaAllah) Then also will continue with my own DNT design i guess it is creative and lastly teachers day. So i will update about the OBS when I'm back and about everything that's going on. Oh ya, about my little cousin, his getting better and recovering...=)

Monday, August 3, 2009

Emotional

It been three years of me in my secondary school life and it took me three years plus to learn to control my emotions. I have been trying my best to control my emotions and i guess i have had improved controlling, managing my emotions well. It is not easy to control emotions for me as i am very bad at it in the past when I'm in my primary school. I started to learn controlling my emotions when I'm 12 years in my primary six, but i fail to control my emotions for long, as when I'm in sec1 i became very hot temper, very emotional etc... After all that, there's once i try to learn to control my emotions again as someone told me that, as a student leader i have to learn to control my emotions well and i knew that it is also important for me to control it, not only for now but also in future.

Today i supposed to help for the last two period but I'm not helping and not even cooperating. Hais...i try my very best to control my emotions but suddenly something just really irritate me and i get very very irritated by it. I seriously don't know what to say about it, i mean everything is my choice, my business and not others. Whatever i do there's consequences to it and if i have to be punish I'll take up the consequences and won't run away from it. I'm not trying to be selfish or something but in this situation i guess i have the choice and i make up my mind for my choice. Am i being emotional by that behaviour, action...hais...

There's soo many to say actually and i put a side my laziness and i type so so long and yet it suddenly gone just like that. I am soo frustrated and so tired now so I'm just cutting it really very short. Hais... So went to KKH just now to visit my cousin just 2years plus, he admitted to hospital last night as his mom doing his milk he grab a pot of hot coffee and his right body, right leg and a bit at his arm. But my aunt said that it is not that serious and I'm glad to hear that and hope he recover really soon. Hais...it is really sad to see him go through all the pain himself at his age now. Afiq, that's what my family call him and here are some pictures
of him that i took.





Friday, July 31, 2009

Being part of SLB

Today i was late for school but NOT on purpose can! Hais...but still can't blame anyone or anything but myself for being late today. I took cab down to school though i know i still late for school but i just don't want to be very late as, if i am very very late i won't be able to go back to classroom for my lesson and must sit at the detention corner. When we, the late comers are allowed to go back to our class for lessons the SLB coordinator teacher ask me how many time I've been late for school this term, i said i don't know cause i can't really remember but now i realized i was late for 2 time this term.

I was not in the mood actually as i am very tired and still sleepy and know that it is my fault for being late today as i slept quite late last night doing my DNT assignment but I'm not blaming anything. The coordinator, she also said that if it gonna be the fourth time i should know what will happen, but actually i don't know till i ask one of my teacher Ms. Suhaila and she said I'll be under probation as a SL if i late fourth time. I'm not sure why but after she (coordinator) talk to me i suddenly feel like under probation for the second time and sure this time if i under probation i confirm out from the SLB and i just feel like can't be bother about it anymore. She the one who nominated me and if she's also the one who get me out from the SLB i don't mind, don't care anymore, i just can't be bother anymore. I know i shouldn't say this... Hais....

It been three years I've been an SL, actually at first i don't wanna be SL but the courage from others was making me decided to just go for it. Yes, i can't deny it that being part of the SLB actually not that bad besides of the consequences, rules, etc.. theres also lot lot lots of benefits, privilege given and mostly learning points. Hmmm...i just don't know why but sometime I'm just sick and really very tired of pupils saying that, "You're an SL, you should show good examples." or "You're supposed to show good example." Hais...sometime i just wish i could be just a normal student, but i didn't say that if I'm a normal student i have the right to break the rules, rules are rules. Being part of SLB is a big responsibility and carrying this big responsibility sometime quite stress i guess or maybe it is just how we wanna take up and face the responsibilities given to us.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Semester 2

It been long since the last post and now here i am blogging again but nothing much to say... Actually wanted to post but keep feeling lazy and plus i don't really got the mood to blog. So semester 2 i have been going home early especially the first two weeks straight after school i go home and no longer stay in school till soo late. Someone keep pestering me why i suddenly now right after school straight the way go home. Seriously no reason la dehh...it is really bored and nothing to do, just simple as that for your answer.

Since Monday till today it have been such a bad days in school which i really hate it so much and also feeling a bit of depressed because of my feelings this days especially today. But i do try my very best to control it and always stay calm no matter what happen, whether i like the situation or not i am still trying very very hard controlling this emotions even if it hurts me soo much...



Who are they to me?
Why must i get affected by it?
Why can't i get this feeling out of me?
Why,why,why..........



I seems to realized all my actions this few days but sometimes also still show attitude to some pupils as because of my own reasons that i think now only one person who know about it and don't really matter. Tomorrow, i am so gonna wear the baju kebaya with think black jeans straight to school for the very first time but doesn't matter. I also did my DNT work about the topic is "IDEATIONS" and I'm only done with one which I'm supposed to do ten ideations but of course my partner gonna do five and I'll do five to so it is fair...