Being part of SLB

Today i was late for school but NOT on purpose can! Hais...but still can't blame anyone or anything but myself for being late today. I took cab down to school though i know i still late for school but i just don't want to be very late as, if i am very very late i won't be able to go back to classroom for my lesson and must sit at the detention corner. When we, the late comers are allowed to go back to our class for lessons the SLB coordinator teacher ask me how many time I've been late for school this term, i said i don't know cause i can't really remember but now i realized i was late for 2 time this term.

I was not in the mood actually as i am very tired and still sleepy and know that it is my fault for being late today as i slept quite late last night doing my DNT assignment but I'm not blaming anything. The coordinator, she also said that if it gonna be the fourth time i should know what will happen, but actually i don't know till i ask one of my teacher Ms. Suhaila and she said I'll be under probation as a SL if i late fourth time. I'm not sure why but after she (coordinator) talk to me i suddenly feel like under probation for the second time and sure this time if i under probation i confirm out from the SLB and i just feel like can't be bother about it anymore. She the one who nominated me and if she's also the one who get me out from the SLB i don't mind, don't care anymore, i just can't be bother anymore. I know i shouldn't say this... Hais....

It been three years I've been an SL, actually at first i don't wanna be SL but the courage from others was making me decided to just go for it. Yes, i can't deny it that being part of the SLB actually not that bad besides of the consequences, rules, etc.. theres also lot lot lots of benefits, privilege given and mostly learning points. Hmmm...i just don't know why but sometime I'm just sick and really very tired of pupils saying that, "You're an SL, you should show good examples." or "You're supposed to show good example." Hais...sometime i just wish i could be just a normal student, but i didn't say that if I'm a normal student i have the right to break the rules, rules are rules. Being part of SLB is a big responsibility and carrying this big responsibility sometime quite stress i guess or maybe it is just how we wanna take up and face the responsibilities given to us.

Semester 2

It been long since the last post and now here i am blogging again but nothing much to say... Actually wanted to post but keep feeling lazy and plus i don't really got the mood to blog. So semester 2 i have been going home early especially the first two weeks straight after school i go home and no longer stay in school till soo late. Someone keep pestering me why i suddenly now right after school straight the way go home. Seriously no reason la dehh...it is really bored and nothing to do, just simple as that for your answer.

Since Monday till today it have been such a bad days in school which i really hate it so much and also feeling a bit of depressed because of my feelings this days especially today. But i do try my very best to control it and always stay calm no matter what happen, whether i like the situation or not i am still trying very very hard controlling this emotions even if it hurts me soo much...



Who are they to me?
Why must i get affected by it?
Why can't i get this feeling out of me?
Why,why,why..........

I seems to realized all my actions this few days but sometimes also still show attitude to some pupils as because of my own reasons that i think now only one person who know about it and don't really matter. Tomorrow, i am so gonna wear the baju kebaya with think black jeans straight to school for the very first time but doesn't matter. I also did my DNT work about the topic is "IDEATIONS" and I'm only done with one which I'm supposed to do ten ideations but of course my partner gonna do five and I'll do five to so it is fair...

Not a good start...

Early morning wake up my head quite pain and really thought i will be fine. While in the bus on my way to school it is really not a good start of the day seriously, as there's a man look like in his fifty or more i don't know but what i am sure not happy about is that he cough soo many times and didn't even bother to cover his mouth and he sit damn near to me!=_= Now i got fever or in fact HIGH fever! Hais...i want go school tomorrow leh...

In school everyday must take temperature twice a day, today I'm surprised by my temperature i took like four time and its still the same more than 37.6'C. It took me few minutes to tell my form teacher about it as i don't want to go down and been quarantine but it's a very irresponsible act so i told her. I'm surprised that my temperature is high because i seldom fall sick and normally once i fall sick I'll have a very very high fever and that's totally bad just like now. While I sit down at the canteen the new VP in my school keep monitoring my temperature and i keep telling him I'm fine and want to go back to class. At last, i made it! After drinking bottles of water my temperature is down and the new VP was like keep taking my temperature and i was like wondering why i asked and he told me that because my temperature suddenly get down till very low. Amazing!=)

Just now when i reach home can't deny it that i do feel a bit weak and i put my bag a side take towel put cool water and keep rubbing it on my face and neck. I seriously want to go school tomorrow and honestly i never skip school ever since i in sec1 but think this year i skip school one day and that's like my first time. I keep taking my temperature just now and it's getting higher, my first temperature was like...38.5'C and even i took few times it is still the same! Now i am still taking my temperature and will keep monitoring my own temperature till i am really feeling better, my temperature is down and my condition allow me to go school tomorrow...=)

Marina Barrage

Today morning went to Marina Barrage for the guides thing, took mrt to Marina Bay then took the shuttle service there. Reach there i walk to the mayflowersec booth, theres Mrs. Ess and some other students helping out there, also the choir group that performed, they sang three songs i manage to watch the first song as i got to look for someone named "Elizabeth" the officer there and lastly some of mayflower students that join the dragon boat competition and they get the last place but it's ok as it is good efforts. Well done guys!

So am suppose to be there by 11am but i reach there an hour earlier and even took some pictures there. Actually, me and another guy, we're there to learn how to be guides for Marina Barrage as what been told by Mdm Suhaila this morning when i message her. I can't find Elizabeth till some of them from the Singapore Polytechnic distributed our lunch and there i see Elizabeth. Been told to have our lunch first and then to contact her, we went to the gallery and my gosh it is damn interesting, the place inside are very beautiful, it was awesome and after that theres some guides from Singapore Polytechnic i guess.

They show and tell us, basically everything about Singapore in the past and also a head in future from now. Their information are somehow useful and clear and after all not so bad i do learned more about Singapore History like the river, what are gonna happen at different areas etc,etc... The place was awesome and once you go there you will definitely love it and think only if you are interested in history of Singapore. Next we will have another training with them not sure when but they will email to our teacher in-charge and i am definitely looking forward to it. It's a great opportunity!=)

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New Bag!
Today is fathers day well, nahh...nothing much to talk about it or even this topic. Well, my mum bought 15durians and KFC for us especially my grandfather. Just now meet my mum at Chong Pang then was damn tired to as i'm not enough sleep, feeling very lazy and as we walk i saw a bag that got my eyes to it and my very first bag that the colour is blue! My favourite colour and normally when i buy bags it will always be black this time i choose blue and i bought with my own money leh..hehe...

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Side.

Table-Tennis

Yesterday had competition at Table-Tennis Association in Toa Payoh and at about 4:30pm meet up with Jasmine, Hui Li and others at Toa Payoh BreadTalk. I'm supposed to play with someone called "Liao Fang"? I think...but she didn't turn up and so it consider i won. But to me i don't really feel good because it's not by my own efforts and i am sure if the person turn up she will get to go to the next round and it is the same thing for Hui Li her opponent didn't turn up. Well, at first we was like damn nervous can! Then we play among us, it was fun whenever i play table-tennis but last week when we have cca in school somehow i don't feel like going but now i think i get that feeling of going again...

Today my match start at 3:00pm was quite nervous to but keep telling myself just go there and have fun, also learn from mistakes though at first i know that i will definitely lose and guess i will never win in table-tennis because I'm simply sucks at it... Oops... supposed to be positive...haha... Hmmm...sometimes no matter how positive we are, we also can be negative at times but also can try hard to keep ourselves positive to. So, about the match obviously i lose but Jasmine said i played quite well to but its ok, it's a great learning experience...

Is This True Happiness?

I do feel a bit of happiness today i guess... Whenever I'm with you, i feel very happy and always smiling. Even when I'm having problems, feeling very frustrated, very stress, stuff like that but whenever i see you, around you, talking to you about everything i feel really good and happy because i get to talk to you even if it is just a few minutes i am happy about it. Today, you made the smile on my face, till now i am still smiling and feel a bit of happiness. Thanks for making the smile on my face today.=)


You're everything to me...
You're the one that i trusted the most in my Life,
You're the one who i always can talk to and cry on,
You're the one that always understand me the most,
You're the one who made me who i am today,
You,You,You....
Everything is you...
No words can describes you...

I shall end this post with what i sometime tell my loved ones.


When changes come to us we tend to let go a few things,
But even if i got soo many changes in my Life.
No change can ever made me forget you...