Break

It been three years I'm in mayflower secondary and so many things have happened and of course if i can reset, turn the time back i will definitely do it. I would want to turn back to my very first day of school in mayflower to start a better life, but all that is just a wish that will never ever come true. Never ever come true!

Since last few weeks i don't know why but the feeling of being very odd in life every time appear. Whatever in my mind, what I'm thinking sometime of myself is being odd. That feeling is absolutely hurt me sometime and whenever I'm feeling that way at any time i keep telling myself to control it, it is just my imagination.

I may be weak in my studies and in a normal technical stream but am i that bad?
Studies may be improve and it is never too late right... Why normal technical sometime must only be with all the other normal technical instead from other stream. Now i just waiting for June holidays because, I need a break!

Sometimes things just happen with or without we realize it and sometimes when we realized it we're actually doing it because of our own personal reason even if it hurts our loved ones. I realized sometimes i choose to behave in one kind that actually i know some people that know me just won't like and unhappy with it but i have my own reason for that. In our life is full of misunderstanding.

Love

What is Love?
How strong Love can be?
How strong can we Love someone?

And it's all about our Love towards our loved ones no matter where they are and what are they doing right now. To me love is also a strong word because since we was very young we been love by people around us and when we now an well grown up teenagers we learn how to love and give love to others. Through the love we learn the pain, sacrifices, care, concern and lot lots more.

When we love someone no matter who they're, what position they're in our life, most importantly is that we do love them and when something happen that we don't expected for we just got to face it even if it hurt us. So many things about love to talk about and i think it will never end.

To me, when we get to know someone and day after day we get a long with that person, again no matter who they're, what position they're in our life, after knowing them for quite sometime and sacrifices happen between us, next is love that we will feel from the heart. Happiness come towards our life and we feel that whenever we're with this person we feels very happy. At the same time we also want her/him to feel happy just like how we're feeling.

Sometime we love a person so so much that we don't want them to get hurt, to feel sad, feel disappointed of us, things like that and all we want is to see them happy because their happiness is our happiness to. But actually, she/he is the first person to get hurt, feel sad, feel disappointed because of us and that's because they also do love us, it just that the love towards us from them is not the same as how we love them, sometime. I rather be hurt than others to be hurt. Even if it hurts me so so much i really don't mind because their happiness is my happiness to.

Mid-Year-Exams Results

I get my results yesterday and really feel very upset about my results this time. Especially for Math and DNT, i failed badly for almost everything and out of six subjects i only passed two subjects. This mid-year-exams really means alot to me but yet i do badly for it and i know i must not give up though yesterday after get my DNT paper i do feel like give up but tell myself that it's not the end of my life and I'm not gonna give up.


"A Failure is only When they Give UP."


I really don't know how to face my mum and tell her i do badly for my exams this time. Yesterday, after get all my results i look at my mum's picture in my wallet i almost tears but i control myself, tell myself to be strong and keep going. Even now when I'm typing i do feel like crying and i know even if i cry, keep thinking of the failure side. Nothing will change.

Sometimes i think why, why must people look down on Normal Technical?
Is NT people that bad, are we useless, stupid and that's why people think that way?
No matter what we're still humans.

I will definitely focus more for my next exams and do better for it. I don't want to let my loved ones down and feel upset esp my mum. She got a very high expectations and hope of me i must not let her down. So many things happen in my life and day after day i get more and more mature. I know what exactly i should do.

MFSS BBQ

Today at about 1plus went home to get change, rest for a while and went back to school reach at about 5plus. I played table tennis for a while in the hall and at about 6plus i went down to help out with the BBQ. Then took pictures taken by Phaedra post there and here. Really enjoy myself and of course i'm super tired now as i reach home at about 10:45pm feel very sleepy...

This year we had Chef for the BBQ foods, also yogurt and this year also most of the Alumni are back to join the fun. As i walking around with Chanel then saw someone, chase her up to the staffroom and of course i'm happy to see her. Aiyo...this year she's cool man...want anything just say it out don't need to ask but just order it... Hahaha... ;) She's soo cute ah..Dunn need to act!=D

So serve her some foods, drink, chit chat, lot lots of fun! Mr. Iszal's baby is damn cute, sorry can't remember the name, i get the chance to carry him so happy, the baby put his right hand in to his mouth and then the baby touch my face of course my face got water from his mouth. Haha...but its ok course his just too cute...

At the end of the day, eat some foods, help to pack up and i play "Lame" jokes with Ms. Joanne Li and she whack me for that...haha.. She told me that i'm super lame but what to do i am lame... Hahaha... I went to the satffroom to Ms. Suhaila's table chit chat with her about some stuff then home sweet home. Chanel & myself walked from school to Ang Mo KIO MRT station. After all its all not bad and well done!!=)

My 15th Birthday!! 14th April!

Time pass very fast with or without me realizing and right now today I'm already 15years old!! That's how fast time pass and me, hoping to achieve all my goals, really wanna learn new things in future and be more mature. When i think again about the pass, about my life 14years ago, i guess day after day i'm getting more and more mature. In fact some girls from my class or schoolmate will find me if there's any problem that they're facing and i really don't mind at all. I will always help them as long as first they must want to help themselves. Now a days i've been keep telling friend of mine all the positive sentence and from there i find that it also reminding myself and shows how mature i am.

So, in school trying to run away from some pupils that wants to punch me 15times just because today is my 15th birthday and i get the chance to run away from them... Pheww....or else my both arms will be "blue black" but instead now my back blue black! Thanks to Sheryl Lynn Gasper!! Most of them wish me, some msg, some wish me by facebook and some give me present. I really appreciate all that very much and feels very happy...=)

After school at 3:30pm got to go for CCA as normal just that been punch twice by "King Kong" as earlier on after recess she and her Good friend really chase around school by then glad my subject teacher came at the right timing. About 5plus Chanel came by the staircase near to staffroom while me waiting for mwc then after CCA we went to toa payoh walk around took pictures till about 8:30pm. While we walking around Chanel was so so clumsy that she fall down 3-4times straight and i really can't stop laughing and till now while typing i'm still laughing.(So sorry chanel, i just can't stop laughing! And ya watch your steps ya..hahaha...=P) Guess we really had fun, enjoy ourselves very much, lots of chit chat and OF COURSE all the really "Lame" jokes with really super lame pupils!! Hahaha...=D


"Thanks Everyone for all the wishes and blessings!!"

Actions speak louder than words...

The very first time i feel soo proud and for the first time i feel soo disappointed of them. Never in my life feel soo proud and disappointed like this before. I'm really happy at first and thought there will be changes in life but i'm wrong cause there's no change at all. Actions speak louder then words, by just talking totally not enough, when we say "I Will" its a promise and once we made a promise we shouldn't break it. We made promise to those who we love and care for and if we break the promise that we made it really gonna hurt her/him.

I'm still hoping that one day they will change, be more mature and be more discipline like how we behave in the 3d2n together. Why can't we maintain the same Attitude now? Why must we change back to the past instead to change for the better? Attitude is everything, if we're not gonna change our attitude right now it gonna be difficult for us after we leave our secondary life because "Choices have Consequences". I'm sure all of us still remember all that happen in that 3d2n and especially when most of us tears. People never cry for nothing and i'm pretty sure all that tears mean a lot to us. Why don't we apply everything to our daily life and not for just few days.

In this world no one have no problem at all but again Choices have Consequences and its all up to us how we gonna handle it. Our happiness is our choice, we choose to be happy then we will feel happy and no one can stop us from being happy. Each and everyone of us have our goals, we know what's our goals and we must start from now in order to achieve our goals.

Honestly, since last monday till today i feel soo disappointed but now quite ok as i'm still hoping the change for the better. I don't want we to disappoint those who have a high expectations of us. Yes, we're from NT so what? Lets together prove to others that we're not as bad as what they think of us. Think of our goals, go for it and always remember, Attitude is everything!=)