Sadness...

Gosh... Today i feel soo...sad, emotional and like a crazy girl. I don't know what will happen to me in future and as for today i went to tpy to make my spectacle. As i'm walking around the tpy central i keep on think about her and her all the while. I'm really worried about her but also trying to tell myself she will be fine. I ask her by msn but she never reply and few minutes later she offline. Hais...but nevermind think she should be okay. I really don't know what should i do, lots of things on my mind, lots of things happening but i'm still trying very hard to hang on...

Although all this really hurts me so so much but i know i still have to face all this... I don't know how to react when school re-open and to even face all the people around me in school. When we makes a person happy we will feel happy to and that is what most of the time i do and want to do. But now, can i even do all that, how can i help them, help others in need when i can't even help myself...

After choose my spectacle i went to amk to meet Ck, Ljs, his cousin and cousin friend. We went to play pool and from there i feel like a true human after feeling so so dead. Had fun playing and well me and Ck we're Noob in it but well as we go on playing we getting better. So i had fun with them and at least cheer myself up but also that night i'm still thinking of her. I just can't get her out of my mind and its really difficult. The more i try to get her out of my mind and more i think of her. Hmmm...its really hard to get someone who we feel attached to, to get out of our mind, heart and soul...