A month...

Finally, i get the chance to blog and pen down whatever that i've been keeping to myself. Actually though i could tell her and share with her but it seems impossible to tell her anything ever since this holidays start. Oh well, can't blame anyone about that...

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It have been a month, a month that you leave me and don't you know that its really hurts to lose our loved ones.

I love you so so much that i won't and couldn't deny that but why are you doing this to me. What happening to you and how are you right now i don't even know.

All i know is that i miss you soo much that i can't even focus in whatever i'm doing. As i'm typing this my left hand hurts...

I'm injured because i can't stop myself from thinking of you this past few days and the pain on my hand is not as pain as in my heart. I tried to accept the reality fact, i accept that although its very painful and its really hurts me.

Someone always told me to keep this faith stronger and i have learn lots of things from that someone...

Everyday when i wake up, starting my day and go on with my life, i try and try to keep this faith stronger. What should i do now?! Why do you do this to me? Its really hurts me so much...

You give me hope... You give me promises... But now, you give me empty promises and you're nowhere. I hate empty promises i hate it! You give me hope and i hope for it and i trust you but now i myself don't understand why....