Responsibilities

I feel that i got too many responsibilities, too many things to do at one go and to listen to people around me. I feel very weak now, not sure what should i do and feel like wanna go far far away from all this but where can i run to. I know nothing will solve and nothing helps if i run away from all this, you're totally right Ms.Oh. I feel very tired of all this, i try my best to be a good student leader in school but when it come with too many responsibilities i really can't take it. I seriously need a break badly.

Sometimes i just don't understand why must i do something that i don't like and that thing is not really important and i can't do something i like which i think it is more important as it is my responsibility. I am seriously very stress, frustrated about it and i don't what should i do now. All this is confusing me that i don't know what is the best choice for me at this point of time. I feel like no one that i can turn to or maybe that is absolutely wrong theres some pupils out there that i can turn to but those pupils, i didn't see them everyday and i don't want to go up to them once a while and tell them my problems that i am feeling very stress. But instead i want to bring joy, laughter and happiness to them that's what i want.

Honestly, everything made me feel like i want to quit as a SL but i also know it is impossible and i also know that i can't just run away from my responsibilities just like that, just because i am feeling stress at this moment. Someone told me if i really feel i got too many responsibilities then i should talk to my SL teacher but another hand is that SL must be prepare for all the responsibilities given. After three years being SL am i really gonna just stop here? I don't have the feel like last time anymore.

I mean, i always stay in school very late almost everyday, help out with whatever i can and not even feel bored staying in school everyday. But now, everything is like a big change, all that feelings in me is gone and i don't know why. I don't know how do i ever get that feelings again as for now really everything is totally gone. GONE!!